Please don't do anything that you or anyone related to you will regret. I have been into self harm and I can say it felt good but it's just spoiling you , trust me ! It's better to share stuff than to die thinking of not sharing it. I'm here and many other people are here to help you , to listen you when you talk about your day! We are here
Dying is not a right thing. People in Gaza of Palestine especially muslims are killed by Israelis never gave up. They know our God will help in life after it. The person who will love his parents don't caring what they did and struggle by hardships will go in heaven. That is promise from our God Allah. pray for your life to God and never give up.