dianis2266

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dianis2266

When you need your friends the most they're not their for you. They say they would but when the time comes they're not. The only thing that never fails me is music. How sad is that? I just lost the friend who i could talk to and would NEVER judge me. I miss her so much. I did not want to get her to him but i had no choice. I took her for granted but now i wish that i would have enjoyed the time i spent with her. Everyday after school i open the door and there she is waiting for me. She would stand on her back legs so that i would pick her up. She would lay on her back so that i would rub her tummy. She would lick my hand. She would never leave my side. She would get excited when we would go out for a walk. She did so many things yet i never thanked her or appreciated her. I regret a lot of things now. I wish that there was a time machine but sadly it doesn't exist. Ig the only thing i can do is be happy for her and her new family. I don't want to but if you love something you have to learn to let it go. Ik it might sound so common for heart broken people but my heart shattered the second that i gave her to him. Who knew it was possible to love and get so attached to something in a short period of time. Everywhere i look it reminds me of her. Ig this is what you call life. I now understand when people say that life is a real bitch. Mom says that there would be others but no one will ever be able to fill that hole. So much for wanting to spend her first snowfall with her. And its ironic how tonight its going to snow and she won't be with me. I really wanted to see her reaction to snow. I would write more but it hurts to think about my pain for her and my tears make the screen blurry.  ( she actually looked like that)