"So this was it, what she had been looking for her entire life. As she gazed into the darkness, she had an overwhelming sense of hopelessness. This was something she could never hope to fight or even understand.
Feelings she couldn't name welled up in her. She felt sick to her stomach, bile rising in her throat. Her hands were shaking. Her breathing was unsteady. Was this... fear?
It was terrible. It was intoxicating. Her head spun with the intensity of it all. She felt *alive, alive, alive,* her heart pounding.
It felt good."
(only one person knows who this is, And That's Okay)