My friend is cutting herself and I just can't deal with it. I tell her to stop and that's its idiotic to even cut yourself in the first place, but she chooses to ignore me. She tells me how I don't feel her pain and how shes extremely stressed. I tell her that I'm also stressed and not in a very good situation, but she chooses to ignore me again and tells me how shes way more stressed than me. I tell her over and over again that its stupid and a waste. I even tried to steal that piece of glass away from her. Then she goes on and tells me that I am not her and that I don't know what she is going through. She is right, I am not her. But I have felt lots of pain before.
She doesn't know this but I've lost my grandfather when I was 9. I didn't even know he was dead at the time. My parents didn't even tell me that he had passed away. One day I woke up to my parents talking about his death and funeral. I was just 9 at the time so I really didn't think anything of it. Which I know was kinda odd.
But after I turned 10, I realised that he was actually gone and that he was never coming back. I cried my eyes out that night because of my realization..
I really just wanna yell that out loud to her, But I can't because I'm scared what her reaction would be.
Sorry for this long ass essay, I just wanted to get my feelings out and thank you to the people who took time out of their day to read this.