directedbyChai

Guys, should I keep working on my book 

I feel so guilty. I could have helped sooner.

I don't care how long it takes. I'll call you multiple times every day until one day, you pick up and we can talk like we used to.

"What are you looking at?" I hear his soft, angelic voice acknowledging my gentle gaze. The gentle gaze that rested on his heterochromatic eyes, gleaming with tears from just a few moments before. My eyes widen in understanding as I register how the boy just a foot away from me had caused so much uncertainty and confusion in my life, despite us being labeled as 'enemies'.
          
          My eyes glance across his face. From his left eye to his right, to his chin, to his lips, back to his dull, colorful eyes. I finally open my mouth to reply to him, noticing that I hadn't responded yet, "You're fucking gorgeous," I confess, my lips shaking from the cold air surrounding us.
          
          Allistair is a 16-year-old teenager. Some might say that he isn't an 'average' teenager due to his royal upbringing, but really, he is. He is very reserved, staying in a small group of 7 people that he has known since the 2nd grade, all of them being royal or upper-class just like him. He often spends his time reading or binge-watching TV or anime. He is not very interested in sports, but he does find interest in a few, such as volleyball and hockey.
          
          Vincent is 17, also raised as a royal. He is very respectable. Unlike Allistair, he is very jockey. In fact, he often spends a majority of his time doing physical sports. Other than that, he likes hanging out with his friend's and sister. He participates in hockey, basketball, and swimming,
          
          A reoccurring issue is that Allistair and Vincent are in the same exact friend group. This makes for tons of very troublesome moments. Due to them being in the same exact friend group, they are always arguing and bickering, clearly causing many issues between their friend group.
          
          Allistair, Vincent, and their friends all decide to meet up and sneak into a highly captivating forest during a time of royal events. They end up getting split up, making Allistair and Vincent involuntarily stick together. Will this forced proximity finally allow them to sort out their differences?

I'm finally going to start writing my book. Except this time, I actually AM going to start writing it. I'm also going to re-write my character guide. I'll probably post around 2-3 different character guides a week.

Chat. Should I start working on the char info again. 

I hate men.

Chat. I'm deadass in love. 
          He's not my typical kinda man, but oh boyyy. 
          I can't even post much abt him on my snap story because he has me added 

Highkey forgot abt wattpad ngl.
          Might start reading again idkk y'all. 
          Had to log back into my account though 

I've been having the full urge to delete my book and just stop doing everything. I'm tired of this shit bro. I can't even clean my room. "It's not that hard." Yes, the fuck it is. My mom never taught me how to clean, she's a hoarder, and my dad is a notorious bed-rotter. I was 4 the last time I've ever cleaned a room alone, and even then, my mom told me where things would go. I've talked to almost all of my neurodivergent friends and every single one of them think that there's something wrong with me. I hate my life. Honestly, I'm most likely going to give up on my book and literally everything. Don't be surprised if my work is deleted in a few hours or days.