directioner_booklove

I miss the family i had before my dad died 
          The togetherness 
          The sense of belonging 
          Its just not the same
          The lightness is gone
          It feels like everyone is walking on imaginary eggshells hoping they don't accidently bring up dad
          
          Worst part is how tiny my family has gotten from 5 to 4 
          It wasn't really 5 to begin with 
          I had grandparents 
          My dadi Dada 
          They were and are horrible people 
          But I cant help but miss them at times 
          Its the same with my dad 
          He was not a good person from the outside
          But from my view as a little girl who thought her dad had the answers to everything and can solve all the problems he was amazing
          Just not with my mom 
          They had great moments together 
          Sometimes all I can remember is the laughter 
          But other times I just remember the shouting and name calling 
          
          
          People say you realise the value of something only once you have lost it
          I dont want to realise the value of family 
          I just want to feel whole again 
          

For Sone reason, my wattpad is not working properly,  I have lost so many books from my reading lists, few reading lists are just gone???

Does therapy actually work?

I hope afterlife or reincarnations exist 

The duality of human beings lol

I hate how the world is changing for the worse, all the progress of the past 10 years,all gone,  within a few years. I hate how we are moving backwards as a society 

Louis Tomlinson is in a city 4 hours away from me and I can't go see him
          This is my villain origin story 
          
          AHHHHHHH I AM GONNA SCREAMM

Might be forgetting how to speak English lol

Why do I feel un deserving of good things
          

Any ideas for new hobbies ???