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hi guys i haven't been on in a while but i need to rant and i don't really wanna use my spam on ig to rant bcos its different y'know? im friends with some of you on here, but i none of you really know me completely so im comfortable venting.
anyways, my grades in school have been slipping. they aren't necessarily bad or anything, but they aren't what i want them to be. and it upsets me. my sleep schedule is absolute shit. it's gone to shit since winter break which was like a month ago. i don't really treat myself the best. i've been thinking too much about that. i don't eat much. and im self aware about it. but im just not hungry. regardless, its hard to change my eating habits when it's been like this for nearly four years. to top everything off, i've been craving or just really wanting to smoke. or do acid. just something. like the more i think about it, the more i want to do it and i know it's not healthy but i just wanna do it so fucking badly. i just want some sort of release. especially since it's finals week and im sure my grades are gonna be shit this semester compared to last year.
idk guys. this is just my life so far.