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Hi hello it's zylan again old user name miaismyfavqueen
          Changed it due to it having a persons name I don't rlly remember 
          
          First of all 
          I'm not active on wattpad due to having a life and work. 
          
          "shootout / giving birth " hi happy new years to you too 
          
          It's 2026 what  beef you got with me still, I LITRO dont know any of yall on this app anymore, left it at 2023-2024. 
          And no one is "lurking" if you meant it by me btw, havent been on this app since last December and that was just to make that message and then got off, never went through anything 
          
          
          hem!
          Now to clear up 
          False suicide: almost everyone back then was doing that shit for shits and giggles lmfao , but no deadass I wanted to kms a few 
          
          I dont remember their user, it was @veilzs / @-vanilla something 
          
          Giving birth: no, Even so I'm old enough to have a kid dude 
          
          Abortion: no tf I ain't even pregnant 
          
          Bombed: it's bali, where r you getting bombed 
          
          Shot: back in 2024 - to now there is shooting in my area but even so it's none of anyone's business 
          
          Thinking of getting on drugs cuz it's cute: I did get on drugs b4, not fo cutesy, not to be cool, genuinely because I was done with life, 
          
          I got to admit, I was high most of the times if you are friends with me from 2024- early 2025 , and was an alcoholic
          
          I'm sober now, ion do drugs, ion smoke, ion drink 
          I have a loving boyfriend, I work, I have a life that's not surrounded by negative stuff , and I'm barely on social media besides tiktok to scroll. 
          
          
          
          

Theres a diff between 
          " I did it again! :3 " 
          Cut deeper. 
           & 
          " I did it again. " 
          thats okay. Talk to me what's up? 
          
          
          It's like making s/h into a joke with adding :3! :D >3< 
          Eugh

Sometimes you just gotta stop being a people pleaser and please yourself, cuz girl ik you ain't wasting life for others, you only live once baby, be nice, be an asshole, crash out, do wtv
          Caring is good but if the person doesn't do the same then drop em, you don't need em queen 
          
          
          
          MOTIVATION OF THE DAY : 
          
          GO KNOCK THAT MOTHERFUCKER OUT , I WOULD NEVER TELL YOU NUN WRONG , IT'S TOO MF HOT OUTSIDE AND THEY PISS YOU OFF, LEFT HOOK THAT HO' ❗❗

chat, you're only ugly when you're not with the right person 
          Likeeee 

Chat!! If y'all wanna talk to me more, I'm on snap and tiktokkk 
          
          Just add me up and we can be friends! Or catch up some things if I knew you in the past! 
          
          Snap : @zylanyeong 
          TT : charismatic_doll_diva 
          
          Love y'all!!! 

... depression hurtz but ya know what else hurts? REALIZING I HAVENT BEEN ON WATTPAD FOR LIKE A YEAR-

" will you ever be poly again~?"
          
          No. 
          Absolutely not. 
          over. My. Dead. Rotting. Body. Even I would never again 
          Ts fucked me up

I hate someone that fakes deppresion and flexs their scars, I really dgaf and if you wanna cut yourself then cut until your arm falls off, the whole world doesn't have to know you cut because it also triggers some people, 'oh haha!! I cuttedddd I'm so sad.' No I'm not gonna comfort your ass for that
          Don't care if it's coping mechanism or shit, it's gonna make some one relapse too because of you 'coping mechanism'
          
          I js don't fw ppl like that 
          
          and also about relationships. 
          
          Like okay, if you guys break up then shut the fuck up on hating each other unless it's  a good reason then have a straightforward talk, Talking shit about each other isn't something you accomplish, let them go, if it didn't work then it didn't work, if you never tried your best then it's on you, a relationship is 50/50 , when you have a problem then communicate it, use effort. Not one  sided 'oh I'm so sad because of you' explain to them  what you're feeling, explain and both of you can fix it 
          
          Boundaries 
          Respect 
          50/50 
          Communication 
          
          " oh it's not easy" 
          Try. 
          "Oh I can't do this because trauma and I'm scared to open up" 
          Take small steps. 
          "I want a break.. To focus on myself. " 
          That's gonna end up bad. 
          "I think we're loosing the spark" 
          This happens in relationships and it takes time for the spark to come back, but taking a break is never the answer

Glow up every week is crazy. 

I hate it when ppl go 
          
          " I'm gonna go k m s , no one loves me. I cut myself-" 
          
          Ok don't put it up your status bruh, the whole world doesn't need to know, and also don't stutter online 
          
          " I.. I just-" 
          
          No. It's weird. I mean sure go act like yourself but js don't stutter in front of me ty
          
          Being cringe has times 
          
          NOT ALL THE TIME EVEN IN SERIOUS TIMES DIGGA