@dixna-mj
OMG 100 FOLLOWERS!!!!! THANK YOUUUU ILYSM GUYS! <3
@dixna-mj omg congratulations you deserve, I know we haven’t known each other for long but literally you so sweet , and deserve this more than anything.
hey hey I hope everyone here is doing alright if not you can talk to me about it and ill listen I love you all so much
mumma, I'm scared to take my headphones off.
the following includes; mentions of suicide, killing other people, mental health, mental breakdowns, violence, a knife, a really really fucked up teenager. don't read if any of this may trigger you. I love you all so much, please take care of yourselves.
fucking hell. BANG BANG and I hope ur miserable until ur dead are SO FUCKING RELAYABLE. FUCK YOU. FUCK YOU. FUCK YOU. THESE THESE FUCKING LETTERS ARENT BUG ENOJVH. LOUD ENOUHH. oh wait. neither is my voice. FUCK YOU. DIE ALREADY. JUSY FUCKKNG DIE. RIGHT NOW. NOW. NOW. NOW. JUST FJCLING DIE. MY THROST HURTS. DIE. DIE. DJE. WHAY THE FUCK DID MY THROAT DO TO YOU? DOE. MY HEADPHONES? DIE. FUCK YOU!!!!! DIE. DIE. DOE. I'M NOT FUCKING JOKING I'M SO FUCKING TEMPTED TO GRAB THE FUCKING KITCHEN KNIFE AND KILL IT. FUCKING KILL IT. IF IT DOESN'T DIE I WILL. IT NEEDS TO FUCKING- (ehm I just screamed a really loud voice broken scream I'd you've ever heard on of those) STOP. IF IT DOESN'T I WILL DIE. I'M NOT FUCKING JOKING. I WILL FUCKING DIE. I WSNT TO DIE. i want to die. let me leave. now. fuckinf let me leave. I don't want to be here. please stop. I want to go to sleep. Just let me sleep. this o won't wake up. please. please. and then maybe I can go to hogwarts, right? that'll be fun. please.
who am i even begging to? what am I even begging to? there's nothing there. Just fucking stars and the fucking universe. but I don't want to become one of those accounts. I've got so many lovely (well not lovely ideas too like murdering it with a fucking crowbar or kitchen knife. or murdering me) ideas I'd like to write. and people on here. I hope you guys know I love you so so much. even if we never met. I love you guys so so so much. so much. and you help me so much. you really do. I just- I just hate it. fucking hate it. yes, it. it's not fucoing human that fucking - eurgh. I wint leave you guys. I promise. I'm crying. I love you.
the empty bracketd were filled with an itslic fontm the first one is [I don't want to stay]
and the second is [alot of days]
I just- I just feel like there's no gods or anything. Just what's to happen will happen and there's nothing we can do about. I believe in the multiverse and alternate universes. that whole thing. and guys we're so fucking tiny. it doesn't matter. but we still exist and I guess it's the little things that matter. make us want to fucking stay. [ ' ].
I can't. I can't. I can't. Shut up. Oh this is why I HAD FUCKING MUSIC. FUCK YOU. SHUT UP. PLEASE [I've been on my knees, change the prophecy] . Falling Apart by Skylar Gray.
. . . Who fucking ruined me? How did this happen? Was it it's fault? Was it my fault? Did I just fucking [come on you've to play you've to play you've to play. NO. FUCK.] mess myself up?
I'm messed up. What is this shit? Maybe I should put a trigger warning on it. I did. Hi lovelies.
I just- haven't been able to see me anywhere past where i am right now. [signs of a girl with a wasted potential, watch what she does with her brain instead of med school] I'm stuck in an in between state of just existing. Not wanting to die but not exactly living either. But some days [ ] it makes it tips to the other side and I do want to die. well, it's either it dies or I do.
I just haven't been able to see past where I am right now. At all. I have this feeling I'm going to just die young. I've never really seen myself old. Nah. [told her if I die, imma die young] IT just doesn't make sense. I don't ever want children. I've had that plan ever since I found out all the fucking shit a woman has to go through to give birth. Nah. it ain't worth it. Small kids are annoying.
I'm just tired. People, I'm tired. It needs to die. my throat hurts, and I forgot my water bottle in the living room so my lips and mouth are dry. fucking hell. I'm so fucking stupid. whyd you do that, maja?
[I used to have dreams so many dreams, where are they now?]
hi. FUCKING HELL.
yall lik every song in speak now is like Fictional. like that's the playlist.
YALL MY DAD'S CONTACT NAME IS SNIVELLUS AND MY MOM'S CONTACT NAME IS LILY EVANS AHAHAHAHAHA IT'S TOO PERFECT TBH
okay guys I need to know what you'd prefer. I've been doing a WHOLE TON of editing Fictional and like alot of it is wayyyy different now and basically Sofia goes to the Harry Potter world but it's her idea of the Harry potter world if you get me. but she doesn't know that you see. She doesn't know that you see. Like everyone there is them but played by the actor who played them in the movie yk? because that's how she saw them as. but Peeves still exists in it. so it's not based on the movies. books events occur but so do movie events. even the dialogue is a mixture. because that's what she remembers/pictures it as yk? and I'm currently debating on whether Enzo and Mattheo are characters. but that would depend on if Sofia pictures the Harry potter world with them in it. should I do that? like which would you guys prefer? also I haven't read possesive (and I don't think I'll be able to so I might need help with accurately portraying mattheo) and I'm currently reading filthy for Enzo so idk just lmk which you'd prefer
@riddle_x_nott it's called filthy I can't rmemebr the author but it's in my draco malfoy reading list
@dixna-mj stop I haven’t read anything now original fan fic for both boys in know about possessive but can’t find enzo’s so like if you know where it is please give it to me
also guys if mattheo IS in it he won't be introduced until 6th year and him and Sofia will probably be endgame
yall I just found out the person that was writing one of the first fics I've ever read here (and one of my favourites) died. @darlingmixtape rip
@RavenC_Simpsonizer it's okay. like I didn't know them. like I didn't even interact with them once or anything. it just made me sad. idk
okay okay I'm probably wasting my last announcement of the day on this, but. . . hear me out. Shadow from Sonic the Hedgehog 3
@fantaenthusiast YOU DO!!!!! IT IS LIKE THE BEST! I LOVE IT SM IT'S LIKE ONE OF MY FAVOURITE FILMS
yall, how'd I suddenly get on the Pinterest girlie side of wattpad?
@dixna-mj i accidentally found myself on that side, said “yk what, this seems cool” and made one. THE CYCLE CONTINUES!!
