dixondarlin

my thomas shelby short story, Florence, has reached 9k reads this week... and I just have to say thank you from the bottom of my heart to every one of you who has read, voted, commented and supported this story, this little passion project of mine!❤️
          	
          	the pride and love I hold for this book is endless and to see the way it has been embraced, received and supported by others makes my heart so happy and full of gratitude! this was such a welcome surprise to see, especially in the midst of life recently. thank you so much!❤️

coldshoulderlover

SO deserved my friend!!! It’s a beautiful story with top tier writing that everyone who loves Tommy Shelby should read ❤️❤️❤️
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dixondarlin

my thomas shelby short story, Florence, has reached 9k reads this week... and I just have to say thank you from the bottom of my heart to every one of you who has read, voted, commented and supported this story, this little passion project of mine!❤️
          
          the pride and love I hold for this book is endless and to see the way it has been embraced, received and supported by others makes my heart so happy and full of gratitude! this was such a welcome surprise to see, especially in the midst of life recently. thank you so much!❤️

coldshoulderlover

SO deserved my friend!!! It’s a beautiful story with top tier writing that everyone who loves Tommy Shelby should read ❤️❤️❤️
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dixondarlin

happy april everyone... I know I'm a few days late and have continued to be a bit absent lately. I've been really struggling.
          
          but I just wanted to send a little message of soft hellos and heartfelt gratitude for all of you who continue to show me support and kindness. even when my activity is low, my writing has stalled and life has been heavy, the compassion and support I continue to receive is a welcome and overwhelming gift. 
          
          I can't begin to express how much it means to have a space to continuously come back to and know that I will be met with kindness and understanding and empathy. even if my contribution through writing has dwindled and my activity has been quiet, to know that people are still discovering, reading and embracing my stories, knowing that people continue to meet me where I am with hearts of genuine kindness and grace, to know that this space has given me so much... means more than I can put into words.❤️
          
          thank you for your patience, your understanding, your support and compassion. thank you for continuing to believe in me. thank you for all the ways you continue to show up and keep me going. I appreciate it more than you know. I miss you all tremendously. I miss my writing dearly. but for now, I will continue to take life one day at a time and keep learning to give myself grace, patience and understanding in the meantime.❤️

dixondarlin

@coldshoulderlover you're going to make me cry! your friendship and support has been such a blessing in my life and I appreciate, value and adore you endlessly! thank you for the way you help keep me going!❤️
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coldshoulderlover

Always rooting you on and cheering for you and your indescribable talents my sweet friend. I pray you know softer days soon, and that your passions return in a way that soothes your soul. Until then, we will all be waiting patiently ❤️❤️❤️ remember to pour love into yourself for you certainly deserve heaps of it ❤️❤️❤️
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coldshoulderlover

Hi friend. I hope you’re feeling better and I hope you find some sunshine to smile about ❤️❤️ miss you and your wonderful words all the time. This is day one of me begging shamelessly for Florence Pt.2 !! ❤️❤️❤️❤️

dixondarlin

@coldshoulderlover oh my friend, you are ths sweetest! your messages and kind words always get me deep in my feels (in the best way possible!) I am so grateful for your beautiful light, compassion and friendship!❤️ thank you for checking in on me, I miss you! I miss writing, I miss really connecting and creating, but still connecting with you is a gift!❤️ ahh, you're amazing! you and your steady support system and kindness! I appreciate it more than words can say! I truly hope to get back to my writing, that it will find me again and I'll be able to share so much more! ❤️
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dixondarlin

I have never been more disconnected from writing than I have been lately... and that is so disheartening to admit.

teimlad

im the same and ive found a lot of comfort reading that others are feeling the same way. I tried today, using a different mindset that this is my story, my world and forgot about my current feelings towards the series. Heck i even changed the names in my head and i managed to finish my chapter and start the next. It speaks so much volume that this is the effect from the movie but take your time, friend! take things at your own pace, find your love for writing again in another way, maybe from trying another style of writing or maybe rewrite your ideal story from the movie. Although I understand how difficult this month has been for you and me, always remember how much love you had for the series, remember what little details you love about each character, their favourite scenes. anything to remember the happiness it’s brought you for many years. One thing I’ve always loved about you and your stories is your passion and how the details you write show it. go easy on yourself, things will get better ❤️‍ 
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flowersforophelia

I’m the same, it’s so hard :( 
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dixondarlin

I feel that there is a fracture in the peaky blinders fandom at the moment... not quite a break, but rather a deep sense of grief, disappointment and an evident shift that we're all experiencing both individually and together.
          
          I believe it helps to have a sense of community that shares in these emotions, these experiences, this kind of strange void. Its a place most of us fans never thought we'd find ourselves, but we are not alone. We navigate this unprecedented space together, with understanding, empathy and compassion for the meaning this show and these characters hold for us.
          
          It doesn't make the experience any less painful, it doesn't fade the disappointment and grief overnight, it doesn't make the fracture feel any less uncomfortable and it doesn't make things go back to how they were. But it does give us a sense of community, a support system to understand and share in these unaccustomed feelings, in this shocking experience we're all still reeling from.
          
          Even though it is a foreign space we find ourselves in as fans at the moment... I find a little light and a little comfort in knowing that we are going through it, navigating and healing from it together.❤️

ViaVolterra

@dixondarlin 
            im choosing to ignore the movie
            not real to me
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ashy_stxrs

@dixondarlin // I haven't been able to see the film and I'm not even remotely sure when I will be, but I've already seen one spoiler. Somehow some way I'm already detached just by everyone's reactions, so I can only imagine how y'all are feeling
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dixondarlin

@teimlad I feel the exact same way. I never could've imagined that I would ever be feeling this way about Peaky Blinders. It has been my comfort show for years as well, getting me through so much and I think that is truly what makes it all so much harder.
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dixondarlin

as peaky blinders the immortal man hits netflix today, I can finally share my thoughts and honest opinion of the film from when I saw it two weeks ago on opening day in theaters... if you've not seen it yet, my review may contain spoilers.
          
          
          Cillian Murphy has said along the way that this film is for the fans. After viewing the film in theaters on opening day, I can say without a doubt that this film was not for the fans. This film is not what we wanted in any way, shape or form. I can objectively appreciate and admire certain details, such as the acting, music, cinematography and certain poetic elements. However, the part of my that holds a beating heart, one that has always beat deeply for this show, bleeds out with what they have created. This film is not a justified addition. It manages to be darker, heavier and more depressing than all of the other seasons combined. There was no preparing for the emotions I felt.
          
          It was one of the most gutting, devastating, disappointing experiences I've ever had. To have something so deeply woven into your heart, as if it were a part of yourself, ripped away in the manner they did, is a pain I'm still grappling with even weeks later. The tears I cried, the pain I felt... I physically folded in on myself in that theater seat. Gutted, devastated, hurt in ways that I could never prepare for. It was like experiencing a death. A brutal loss. To have these characters, this world taken away, felt like they'd gone and ripped my heart straight out of my chest.
          
          My body still remembers all of it. The sobs that shook my bones, the gasping for breath, the pain radiating through my very soul. The impact was so powerful, so devastating and slightly traumatic to witness on the big screen.
          
          To witness your comfort character, your comfort show ripped away from you and destroyed in the way they did... it leaves a gaping hole with nothing to help heal the ache.
          
          [Continued in the Comments]

teimlad

i agree 100%, since I’ve seen the film I’ve felt so out of touch with this franchise…something I’ve loved for close to a decade to be ending with a film that was a massive injustice to the characters. i had walked into the cinema with a spring in my step to walk out sobbing my whole way home, it hurts so much as so much hype was built around it after season six, waiting for a couple years for another glimpse of the thing i love the most, only for it to be so wrong. each day after watching it, i grew more and more negative feelings for the film which has never happened.
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coldshoulderlover

@dixondarlin you articulated the same thoughts I have so well. all I can say right now is that I feel so incredibly betrayed by this film and I, like you, hope I can forget it ever happened. 
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thtsalrghtmama

@dixondarlin it honestly saddens me to say i have to agree. it didn’t feel like it was what the fans wanted at all. when i seen what happened to arthur i genuinely wondered what way they were taking this film, then ada and i just wondered what i was watching. it was so quick you couldn’t even comprehend it or process what had happened to her. what tommy did to arthur was so out of character, and it doesn’t even make sense for it to be mercy. honestly for me, losing john was bad enough, but to lose arthur with no previous knowledge and to lose ada so fast wasn’t a good direction to take the film at all, and besides giving tommy fuel to keep going with his plan, it added nothing to the film. i’m so sorry this has caused you so much anguish angel, it wasn’t fair on the die hard fans at all❤️
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dixondarlin

michael b. jordan winning the academy award for best actor tonight makes me so happy❤️

dixondarlin

I know I've been a bit quiet and less active on here lately. I'm just taking some time. I've been going through a rough bout with my mental health this past week and just taking it day by day.❤️
          
          I'm also waiting until the immortal man is released on netflix and everyone has the opportunity to view it before sharing my thoughts and opinion on the film. which I'm sure is adding to some of my quietness lately.

ashy_stxrs

@dixondarlin // hoping the best for you and your mental health x
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coldshoulderlover

I hope that things get better soon for you sweet friend ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ 
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Gia_aa

@dixondarlin I hope everything goes well ml <3
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WinterRoseShelby

Hope you are well friend. 

dixondarlin

@WinterRoseShelby thank you, just taking each day as it comes. I hope that life is treating you kindly!❤️
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dixondarlin

just came back from seeing peaky blinders the immortal man in theaters... and all I can say is that I am going to need a lot of time to process this film.❤️

OneBaroqueGirl

girl I left the theater blubbering 
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kjoleen22

@dixondarlin Sounds like the kind of story that really stays with you for a while. Those are always the ones that hit the deepest. ❤️ With a character like Tommy, I imagine there’s a lot to process there. Did it inspire you in any way to keep writing or spark new ideas? Those kinds of stories have a way of stirring something creative. I so love reading the stories you tell.
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