@dktorrance nothing wrong with crying about this. This was emotional and a big change for you! It's not goodbye to your parents it's see you later. I know it's hard to see it that way when all this is going on. No judgement at all. When I left for basic training for the army at 19, the night before I got on the plane, in my hotel room i cried my eyes out most of the night because I was leaving my grandparents and mom for the first time for more than a night or two. Lol I was wrecked. Hadn't even made it out of the state and was homesick and missed them. At the time it felt like I was in mourning. In a way maybe I was. It's such a huge step in our lives so maybe we are morning the ending of our childhoods when everything was safe and our families made the big decisions. This is a big change and it's freaking scary. Any major step in our lives are. Believe me I've just turned 40 and am looking at houses outside of the state a good distance from my family. It will make me happy in the long run but tbh It's scary and I catchyself doubting everything. Seems so silly but we are human. So take your time. Hang in there, call them often and don't feel ashamed. At 40 my gma has the power to turn me into a sobbing mess lol. Don't feel ashamed. Get a good support there with you and just be safe. People are crazy out there. Take care! I hope things get a little easier, just stay busy for a short bit and it will help