dn_llyn

Didn't realise I reached 100 followers :))

dn_llyn

Looking at my profile picture I definitely haven't come back to wattpad since last year sksksk
          But yeah I've returned from my 5 month break and I'm kinda ready to write again? Idk maybe I'll still take a break from posting but I'll definitely be more active here again :)) 

dn_llyn

Note: I'm talking about Masquerade
          I've had this idea for a while now, and in my previous account, I've had several ideas too
          There was one that I started writing, but I stopped, because it just wasn't flowing
          Then suddenly, it was like it was meant to be, I got logged out of that account
          The account I built for years, the one with 100+ followers and people leaving messages saying "i see you in every romance fiction book" or "omg I love your pfp"
          I miss those days
          Stanning BTS also had me drift away from a few fandoms, but I really will never regret stanning them, because they probably brought me more happiness than I could ever have
          It's just that I'm too dedicated to them to the point that they're all I see, which was totally different from past me, where I would listen to different songs from different artists, not just one
          My taste in songs have not changed, but my updates in it have
          (oof I almost pressed the announce button)
          Alright, I guess I'll write till here.

dn_llyn

I'm gonna rant here
          (I shall not press the 'announce this to my followers' even though I'm immensely tempted to)
          I haven't been on Wattpad to actually read nowadays, it's getting kind of bad
          I used to love reading on Wattpad, but ever since I started writing here I feel like when I come here I'm obliged to write something, yknow?
          I want to be a writer in the future, and this could most probably be a baby step towards that goal
          However, all this pressure and this perfectionist within me is pulling me back
          I love Wattpad, like, A LOT, and I don't want to delete this app, even if I'm taking a break
          Wattpad brought me happiness ever since 2015, it's become a part of my life now, but without reading, it's slowly chipping itself away from it
          I may not be the best writer, and many people may not be reading my books and enjoying them, but I enjoy writing, and I don't want it to become a necessity to do even though it's a future career goal
          People may not ask me to update quickly, even though I would love for that to happen because it gives me motivation, but I am forcing myself, mostly, to always update on time (which I always cannot, for some reason)
          If you guys don't know, I always set my target to 1800-1900+ words per chapter, which really puts me in a spot when I don't reach that target
          When I, say, wrote 1500+ words, I used to (before I deleted everything and rewrote it) always apologise in my a/n that it was a short chapter

anoffensiveintrovert

@cl0udm0chi_2213 it's okay!!! I'm so glad it made you happy <3
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dn_llyn

@anoffensiveintrovert I AM SO SORRY I DELETED YOUR COMMENT BUT I SCREENSHOT IT BECAUSE IT MADE ME SO HAPPY THANK YOU SO MUCH <3
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