I'm gonna rant here
(I shall not press the 'announce this to my followers' even though I'm immensely tempted to)
I haven't been on Wattpad to actually read nowadays, it's getting kind of bad
I used to love reading on Wattpad, but ever since I started writing here I feel like when I come here I'm obliged to write something, yknow?
I want to be a writer in the future, and this could most probably be a baby step towards that goal
However, all this pressure and this perfectionist within me is pulling me back
I love Wattpad, like, A LOT, and I don't want to delete this app, even if I'm taking a break
Wattpad brought me happiness ever since 2015, it's become a part of my life now, but without reading, it's slowly chipping itself away from it
I may not be the best writer, and many people may not be reading my books and enjoying them, but I enjoy writing, and I don't want it to become a necessity to do even though it's a future career goal
People may not ask me to update quickly, even though I would love for that to happen because it gives me motivation, but I am forcing myself, mostly, to always update on time (which I always cannot, for some reason)
If you guys don't know, I always set my target to 1800-1900+ words per chapter, which really puts me in a spot when I don't reach that target
When I, say, wrote 1500+ words, I used to (before I deleted everything and rewrote it) always apologise in my a/n that it was a short chapter