piekachoo

In my last chapter, you're everything but a shining star to be admired from afar, far from my reach and glowing brighter along the way. You'd never be my destiny and you would never knew the presence of a poem that deeply engraved the essence of you in me.
          
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          "In my last chapter, you are everything but — a distant star, admired from afar, glowing brighter the further you slip away from my reach. You were never meant to be my destiny, and you will never know how deeply I have etched your poetry into me."

Still reminiscing the moments in my 2019 -2021 ;')

Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir dan Batin!

I remember the first day that we met
          Your pretty eyes I can never forget
          In my heart and mind 
          The thoughts of you
          Sealed and tattooed
          I hold your hand and feel the warmth of your touch
          No I won't lie sometimes it's too much
          Your innocence 
          I can't pretend
          oh it breaks my heart, to see you so blue
          
          Im too afraid to fall in love with you
          If I get closer wouldn't know what to do
          love I know that I have nothing on you
          loving you, I need some courage too
          
          Im too afraid to fall in love you
          I tried to stop it babe if you only knew
          this little heart's in pain just thinking of you
          I can't help but fall in love with you
          I can't help but fall in love you
          
          Can't find a reason yeah
          That once again you'd come my way
          No matter how much I refuse to
          
          Fall into you, I'm trapped like a fool
          
          
          Im too afraid to fall in love with you
          If I get closer wouldn't know what to do
          love I know that I have nothing on you
          loving you, I need some courage too
          
          Im too afraid to fall in love you
          I tried to stop it babe if you only knew
          this little heart's in pain just thinking of you
          I can't help but fall in love with you
          I can't help but fall in love you

I want to rant real bad that it felt like it's raining in my brain and it's stormy in heart at the same time. I can hold it but I don't know if I can do this anymore.

Holding on the rays of hope from others just to crush your own.

Alhamdulillah, I've finally graduated

If this love is over, I'd still dive back in again.
          If this love is colder, I'd keep the fire lit in mine.
          
          You'll always be my blue valentine.
          
          I'm fallin' over and over and over.
          You're getting colder and colder and colder.
          
          Blue valentine.

Pure and innocent? 
          How does it once hold so much light in the glimmer of hope? 
          It seems these days have been a bit gloomy and foggy? 
          Cleanse the soul, they said. 
          
          Well, it's never about them anyway.

Nothing but the truth now
          Nothing but the proof of what I am
          The worst of what I came from
          Patterns I'm ashamed of
          
          Things that I don't even understand
          I tried to fix it, I tried to fight it.
          My head was twisted, my heart divided, my lies all collided.
          I don't know why I didn't trust you to be on my side.
          
          I broke into a million pieces and I can't go back.
          But now I'm seeing all the beauty in the broken glass.
          The scars are part of me, darkness and harmony.
          My voice without the lies this is what it sounds like.
          
          Why did I cover up the colours stuck inside my head?
          I should've let the jagged edges meet the light instead.
          Show me what's underneath I'll find your harmony.