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Vent TW!!: eating problem mentioned: Finally fingered out my gender finally! (Ima a boy:3), but now I’m struggling with my sexuality. I’m bisexual and in a relationship with my girlfriend but I’ve recently been feelings more attracted to guys more and barely for girls. Yeah I’ll yap a bit about girls I find attractive and pretty, but I would focus more on guys than women and it’s scares me because I’m literally in a relationship with a girl and I don’t even know if I love her or not anymore. She’s so sweet, caring, loyal, buys me things I don’t even ask for, just everything you could want in a girl but I’ve been distant from her honestly to the point I’m losing feelings for her losing. I’m  having these crushes on guys who are just so sweet to me and make my day even brighter but then again I tell myself I have a girlfriend and need to stop. Yes, I love my girlfriend but I also don’t want to continue on that relationship but feel I cannot let go of her.
          
          TW: Eat problems.
          
          I wouldn’t call it an eating disorder or anything honestly but I noticed that I’ve barely been eating but it’s not on purpose, like if I’m forgetting to eat something throughout the day. For example: someone could say “Oh I ate apples with peanut butter today, how about you?” And I’d be like “.. oh shit I forgot to eat today!”. It’s been going on for a bit of a while now and every time I get up I feel my head all dizzy and feel like I will fall. All I remember eating today is (hold on I’m thinking.) Apple sauce, 2 cookies, water, and ice tea in the last 24 hours. I’d tell myself “hey you forgot to eat!” And I’d just be like “oh yeah I did.” And then move on with life on my head. Idk if that doing it on purpose or anything but I just forget to eat and it’s getting bad to the point I feel I need to talk to a doctor or family member about it. I’m starting to feel weaker and weaker.