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(uh), i’m not thaaat stupid. maybe in another life where i’ve finally gone psychotic, alright? ☆

not only mister kunishige.. the war cursed us, damned us all, (as it should’ve). i wasn’t there for the direct aftermath, so it’s not my place to say that i understand you or the hishaku.

ᵀsubomi Ayanami, known better as [the] Lady Ayanami or Black Swan. Current head of the Ayanami Clan of several years after having killed the former clan head and elders, shortly before the death of Kuneshige Rokuhira. Regarded as one of the best swordswomen of the modern-day, the Black Swan is a member of the Hishaku, carrying out revenge for those she lost during the Seitei War, hoping to eventually restore her clan to its destined glory.

¹ on the spectrum of possible deaths, ‘after reading the tibetan book of the dead’ by lucia perill.

“i don’t know how many births it takes to get reborn not as the flower, but the scent.”     [    a private & selective portrayal of    TSUBOMI AYANAMI, “THE LADY AYANAMI”,   an original character affiliated with takeru hokazono’s kagurabachi & gege akutami’s jujutsu kaisen.      low & sporadic activity,  semi-lit responses.      manga spoilers & canon-typical mature themes present, including & not limited to:   mental illness, war, death, the cycle of violence, & more, interact at your own discretion.      written by the girl of the month.    ]     “to be allowed to exist as air (a prayer to whom?) dear whom: the weight of being is too much.” ¹

*     @thcogniz tsubomi vc They call me 007. 0 Feats 0 Relevancy 7 Arcs she never got

*  Haha. Potential

but also having her genuinely just be some loser in jjk is kinda funny #PotentialWoman

I cherished our friendship, Tsubomi.. And your absence really hurt me. And I, uh — still kept the cursed tool you gave me.. It’s really useful.. But wouldn’t it be funny if I used it on you? ( ◠‿◠ )

then go home.  i won't snitch.

*⠀jjk0 era ♪(๑ᴖ◡ᴖ๑)♪

i..  um, seriously? not a big deal?  [a dumbfounded look is formed onto nikolai’s face, a frown curling across his mouth. he stares with wide-eyes as if his brain had short-circuited at tsubomi’s sudden decision to leave. leave. the singular word repeats in his brain. head tilts downwards, staring at the ground beneath his feet, at his shoes.]  pshh..  [nikolai blows a raspberry childishly, attempting to play it off. well: attempting. it’s painfully difficult to. but he shouldn’t be surprised — didn’t (most) of all the people he’s formed a bond with abandon nikolai in the end, while he’s left to find solace in their memory? all blurry apparitions, coming to haunt him in the end.]  i — i guess i understand your reasoning..  but you could, um, prove everyone wrong. not every jujutsu sorcerer needs a technique..  [his gaze lifts, meeting tsubomi’s eyes. nikolai’s face displayed uneasiness, resembling a puppy that was kicked to the side of the curb. if he had the courage to do it, the heart — he could abandon the world of jujutsu and live, for the very first time in his life. freedom seemed to be perfectly ideal, yet he couldn’t ever leave. there were many ‘ifs’ and ‘maybes’. they could never come to life. he shifts his feet, imitating tsubomi,]  i’m, um — sorry. i’m..  happy you’re getting out. but what’re you going to do? where will you go, tsu?
            
            *⠀ Had 2 re-send Oopsies

⁀   ˳o͟s͟t͟a͟v͟i͟ ͟t͟r͟a͟g͟ na putu svom¹ :      “well, that’s the plan, leave by the end of next month, or the start of the month after that at most (..) don’t plan to be here any longer, really,”        tsubomi kicks the pebbles underneath her, trailing behind @offmutt before realizing he had stopped walking to stare at her. tsubomi tilts her head to the side, shrugging nonchalantly.       “(..) i mean, /we are/ friends, you’re my best friend, you know. but don’t —    don’t take me leaving personally, okay? you have nothing to do with it, it’s just —”        tsubomi’s feet shuffle underneath her and it takes a moment for her to pick up her sentence again. she sighs before coming clean with nikolai.        “i just can’t stand being here everyday. hate it. more than anything. and as much as i’d love to stay here and y’know, hang out with you, everything just. sucks. but we can always text each other n’ stuff and hang out after you’re done with school..  so i mean, it’s not reeeeally a big deal..”
            
            ¹ en: leave [me] a mark on your way, from september’s ostavi trag (1976)

*⠀hs era