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dollcesca
♡ ࣪ ִֶָ☾.
dollcesca
l am a madman.
l am a danger. ln my mind there are different worlds creeping in.
the heavens and earth collide.
l do not know where l am.
do you love me?
you do not wish a life with me for yourself.
no one wishes that.
George!
l will stand with you between the heavens and the earth.
l will tell you where you are.
Do you love me?
l love you!
from the moment I saw you trying to go over the wall... l have loved you desperately.
l cannot breathe when you are not near.
l love you Charlotte.
my heart calls your name.
dollcesca
I command it! go!
I will stay!
I command it.
Please, Charlotte. Please go.
No.
Charlotte, you're not listening to me.
I am.
I have heard that you wish i had not come.
that you want me to go.
that you do not want to see me.
what l have not heard is that you do not love me.
l have been suffering and alone and believing l am a failure, as a wife and as your queen because you stay from me as though l am a disease.
and then today, it suddenly occurred to me that perhaps there is another reason.
a better reason.
perhaps you stay away from me because you care for me.
perhaps you stay away because you love me.
Do you love me?
l'm trying to protect you.
Do you love me?
l... l cannot.
we cannot... this conversation is... l can't do this.
l never wanted to marry.
Do you love me?
Charlotte. Please, stop!
ls it because you do not believe that I could love you?
l do.
l love you George.
l love you so much that l will do as you wish.
lf you do not love me, say you do not love me, and l will go.
l will go back to Buckingham House.
and we can live our separate lives, and l will have this baby alone,
and l will make do and fill my days survive.
all on my own. l will do that.
but first, you have to say that you do not love me.
you have to tell me that l am utterly alone in this world.
dollcesca
your passion is bound to me.
dollcesca
you must know. surely, you must know it was all for you. you are too generous to trifle with me. I believe you spoke with my aunt last night, and it has taught me to hope as I'd scarcely allowed myself before.
If your feelings are still what they were last april, tell me so at once. my affections and wishes have not changed, but one word from you will silence me forever. If, however, your feelings have changed, I will have to tell you: you have bewitched me, body and soul, and I love... I love. I love you. I never wish to be parted from you from this day on.
dollcesca
♡ ࣪ ִֶָ☾.
dollcesca
I have struggled in vain and I can bear it no longer. these past months have been a torment. I came to Rosings with the single object of seeing you... I had to see you. I have fought against my better judgment, my family's expectations, the inferiority of your birth by rank and circumstance. all these things I am willing to put aside and ask you to end my agony.
dollcesca
dollcesca
Sen hep yanımda ol, en güzel destekcim benim.
dollcesca
you are 17 years old, you don't know anything about love.
dollcesca
oh, and you do? you don't look at daddy the way I look at noah. you don't touch or laugh. you don't play. you don't know anything about love.
dollcesca
why didn't you write me? why? it wasn't over for me.
I waited for you for seven years. and now, it's too late.