I feel like no one loves me, misses me, or wants me. I feel like everyone is forced to befriend me and talk to me. I feel like they only talk to me so I won't be sad and so I'll feel important to them, which I'm not. I feel like a third party in every relationship, an unwanted party in friendships, an unimportant one whose presence or absence makes no difference. I feel like the girls at school talk badly about me behind my back and don't like me, but they like me to my face. I feel like when I join a WhatsApp group, the girls in the group have another group without me and talk badly about me and don't want me in it. I feel like when I talk, no one listens to me or cares about me. I feel like they consider what I say trivial and meaningless, not funny at all. And I hate all of this. I hate school because of this. I hate all of this and I feel like I've never been a lovable girl since I was little.
But this feeling doesn't last with me. (M), my friend, because she remembers me, cares about me, and doesn't forget me ♡... my friend, (L), who cares about me and asks about me whenever I disappear, meaning she cares about me and my presence... (N), because she's like my mother, loves me, and gives me advices ♡.
I love them .. only them.. i hate everyone but them.. ♡