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TIKTOK NOOOOO TIKTOK!

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I need to vent— SO basically, last February, one of my best friends at the time suicide reported me (spoiler alert: IM NOT SUICIDAL— was i depressed and going through it, yes. Not suicidal.) ANYWHO, it created a whole slew of issues that ended with me in therapy, losing three good friends and rocky relationships with others that eventually ended, and overall spiked anxiety. And at the start of this school year, she was supposed to be in my calc class butbDROPPED IT AFTER SHE SAW MY FACE (PUSSYPUSSYPUSYY)— I digress. And it’s been jolly since. Today was the first day back from winter break and I started a new class this sem— forensics. (For another spoiler alert: I have been into forensics and interested in it for YEARS at this point. It’s what I want to do with my life. He already been accepted into college with a forensic specialization in drug analysis) SHE NEVER LIKED IT. It pisses me off so badly because she never showed any interest in it when I would yap about it. So her doing it is really weird to me, not saying she took it before she wanted to fuck with me— but it’s a genuine possibility (I’m realizing how much stuff she did that was messed up now some were not friends anymore). I have an emergency therapy appointment scheduled for two days from now, my usually therapist is on maternity leave so idk this one. But I’m debating messaging my teacher to tell him what happened and to be like “I can’t be near her, yadadad happened, please keep me away as much as possible” especially because I can tell him to ask my counselor since it’s on a school record, she just can’t legally talk about it (I think). Dropping the class is NOT an option, I LOVE forensics and I’m not giving her the satisfaction. I think I’m going to message him tomorrow night to see how class goes tmr and like if it’s an issue. I have friends in that class so it’s not a matter of looking like a loser or wtvr either. If anyone actually read that, THANKS AND LMK IF IM CRAZY PLS IM GOING INSANE! <3

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Reading The Poppy War rn and omfg it’s so good. I love how it’s challenging my own religious standpoint and how it fully encapsulates gods and like insane amount of power and creation, like omfg, it’s so insanely good. And literally like I LOVE Jiang, I’ve loved him since the beginning bc of how goofy he is, but it’s SOOOO obvious how much he cares and how like detached he is from reality and I lowkey love it so much.