Hey,
So some people have asked why i was so inactive recently.
Basically something happened to my best friend and i cant do anything to change it now. And what happened made me really sad but then i was mad, that was the first two weeks after the event. After that everything was numb, but it was painful. I was depressed to the point i wouldnt get out of bed, getting changed was a like a chore. I would cry myself to sleep. My panic attacks have gotten alot worse and somehow my BPD has gotten worse/more obvious.
I took a break off school, off internet and my girlfriend broke up with me because i was "a big emo loser" and thats when i thought that i should end it all. Thank god i didnt. So many great things have happened afterwards, i have finally managed to find a new best friend . Suicide isnt the solution to your problems, you still havent solved them and i wished my best friend had known that.