Can I just-
I've been on here for 5 years.
I miss back when it wasn't so toxic, when I wasn't feeling pressured or guilty if I didn't write anything for weeks. I miss being able to read stories with poor grammar and hundreds of mistakes and see nothing wrong with it, see no insults in the comments and no one being downright rude.
Maybe it was just the fandom I was in, but Wattpad 2014 was a better place.
None of these crappy updates, none of these completely hateful people; rarely seeing someone saying 'kys' or other things of the sort.
I miss being on here and actually being okay.
I miss the years when I felt true happiness and felt comfortable in the worlds I allowed myself to envision, let myself slip into. When people didn't try to correct every single mistake you made or point them all out, didn't try to make you feel like you were a bad author and such.
2014 wasn't the best year, I'll admit it. I'd been diagnosed with depression and kept isolating myself and yadda yadda.
But at least I had a safe space.
It doesn't feel that way anymore.
Making my first Wattpad account at age 11 wasn't the smartest idea, and I didn't know the guidelines or anything. I was young, why would I read those? I probably wouldn't have understood most of it anyway.
But the account still exists. I still have the info.
Created as @iThePack and is now @dolliekoo
And that account has lead me to where I am now.
Because, even if this app isn't as good as it once was, it's helped me become a better writer and has let me see the do's and don't's.
So... yeah.
Thank you, Wattpad, for this one long journey.
Let's hope it gets better.