Jay

Damn,  I was edgy in middle school... Why did no one warn me of this?

Wow look who's back on this bullshit! It's me whoa. New stories have been being worked on and will be getting published soon!

Hi

Time for me to be a little serious on this profile. 
          
          A kid kid at my school had just killed himself because he was bullied by the staff .It took a kid kid to take his own life's for people to finally fight. 
          The school has fired people because they se they were standing up to the school.this school has done nothing but bad, for my I couldn't get my 504 for nine years, I was bullied because I had a rolling backpack, I was bullied by the staff because I wasn't good at math.The teacher i had favorited all the kids that played sports and let the rest of us rot to shit, the staff doesn't care about anyone but themselves. This school has not done anything for good, my brother had to be escorted around school because a kid fought him and he tried to defend himself. This school doesn't care about the kids, if they get bullied, they don't care whatsoever, if a special ed kid gets bullied, they don't care, but as soon as a popular gets a little bullied everyone loses their shit, except for this kid, the staff watched as this kid got bullied by the staff.

Okay. I really need help with my books, so if anyone wants to help please message me.

Okay. So I am in the middle of trying to write a new book to give you guys something a little different from I never thought and it isn't that easy. Now here is the part where you guys help. I need help to write this book, I will take two people to help me. If you want to help just message me and here is the outline to the story. 
          
          The Outer Science. It's what everyone knows nothing about. Jace wants to know what is going on. He wants to know what the Outer Science is. Is it just some scientific geek club, or is it something more.
          
          It is all a secret. Until he seeks to find the hider.

I am currently working on a new part for both "It isn't that easy" and "I never thought" so both those parts will be out soon so don't worry I am trying to make them both a little more longer than the updates that I have done.

I’m not dead
          I’m not fixed, but I’m not giving up yet 
          I’m sick of saying that I still don't have anything done
          I hate telling friends I’m trying something just to give it up 
          I’m still unsure of my emotional state
          I’m still incapable of focusing lately
          I don’t feel like creating
          I’m tired of asking Google how to find motivation
          I don’t think I’ve ever made something that’s as good as I’m capable of
          I hate not having a reason to look my best
          I only ever take care of myself with the intent to show the internet
          If what made me successful was an imposed sense of stress then 
          I am so so glad that I hated myself 
          I didn’t luck into this position
          I struggle with decisions
          I wouldn’t be my own friend I’m too inconsistent
          without immense pressure nothing ever gets finished 
          If these words make it to your ears it’ll be a fucking miracle.
          I’m fortunate to know more good people than most do
          I wish I had more friends I could be physically close to
          I’m pretty good at like 20 different skill sets
          At the expense of never being great at any one of them
          I wish this beat hit harder I wish more words fit
          I know 99 percent of people really don’t mind
          I think collaborating forced me to finish things ‘cause
          I was terrified of wasting others people’s time
          I wish I could focus on what I define priority
          I wish I was as grateful as I want to be 
          I wish I knew more people who were mentally stable 
          But if I did, I wouldn’t let them waste their time on me while I’m disabled
          I feel alone I know I’m not
          I used to talk to lots of people. Lately I’ve stopped
          They didn’t deserve it, I’ve been a terrible friend.
          I couldn’t bear to let myself become boring to them 
          I don’t let myself get my hopes up. I love people who do.
          Ah, I never know if what I say I feel is the truth
          So more people could relate when they read the words
          I can't be happy in the moment
          I distract myself with gaming, waiting to get better
          I hate it,I've gotta put on my own oxygen mask first
          I am terrified of making promises any more

Okay guys the next part of It Isn't that easy will be updated very soon this will be updated as a longer part to make up for all the shorter and crappier things that I have been calling updates

my old account is no longer active, please follow my new account
          I will try to bring my stories over to my new account 
          sorry about this!