lonely _ forever..

I swear everytime I hear any song to fifth harmony, specially thier last song 'don't say you love' my heart literally break for millions of pieces.. 
          
          

I have question..
          I'm the kind of person who doesn't like to have a lot of relationship like any kind of relationship, friend, family, ect... 
          and at the same time it's easy for anyone to get my trust, like really, anyone, and if anyone lose my trust it's SO hard to get it back like it's close to be impossible , so because of my little relationship, I always be an open book to the people that I trust like i would talk to them about everything..
          So my question is do you think it's wrong to trust people easily ? and is it wrong to be an open book??? 

People in my community are really boring and distributing as shit , they just  enjoy talking behind people backs and judge them for how they look like and who they really are and if the person who they were talking about come they will act like they fucking love him.. 
           I will choose the unit, books, music a hundred times instead of them. 

Look How fucking lonely I'm, even here nobody following me

I hate school 

I'm working as a chef in the house and my parents give me 54 dollars in the end of the month .. 

I really like really need a friend, like a real one, like someone I could talk to all the time, someone who doesn't judge me or leave me, someone who doesn't only come to me when he want something from me, someone who listen to me, someone I could cry in their shoulder, someone I could come to when everything getting dark and when none want me, someone who knows my the best and want to be by my side all the time, like really I'm just looking for some real friends and they never comes up..
          
          Damn bor, I'm so fucking lonely 

Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful,so freakin' beautiful, that's the first thing come to my mind when i think about you.. 

I frcking hate math I have a taest tomorrow, pry for me.. 

Caminah, Caminah, Caminah, Caminah, Caminah, Caminah, Caminah, Caminah, Caminah, Caminah, Caminah, Caminah, Caminah, Caminah, Caminah, Caminah, Caminah, Caminah, Caminah, Caminah,
          Wha the fuck happened to my favorite ship???!!!