i need something to kill me, i am tired of taking of my own life

Should I make a one shot book of just random ideas I have? I honestly have too many books that I’ve barely started 

YOU GUYS THEYRE VOTING FOR A DIFFERENT BOOK AND I FEEL SO LOVED @PrayForTheBeebos

@PrayForTheBeebos just voted on three chapters on one of my books and I’m-

I mostly do femtyler in my books

Those who still even care to read my things, 
          May you grace me with ideas for a Joshler story? I’ve been tryin’ to think of some,
          But it seems I’ve become fresh outta ideas,
          All my pleases and thank you’s 

I posted this cause I was really bored and my friends aren’t really giving me feed back in it  so fans, enjoy 
          https://my.w.tt/vKZ49YE1vN

Got got bored so I published a chapter from one of my books
          
          
          
          
          I wanted to publish the rest when it was finished but
          
          
          
          Fuck it 

*sips tea*
          I see you got some John Laurens shit...
          Gimme the good shit

https://m.youtube.com/watch?t=3s&v=1_a7ef75kv0
          https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=EWrM5VGOto8
          https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=DMiOzEYmb6k
          https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=T9AcXArpWsw
          https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Qj3VPRa10Os
          https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=dlnTI8taIS4
          
          Don't question, just watch. 
          You're welcome. 

This is my first published fanfic and I want to know if it's good or not soo...yeah...thanks for reading if u do
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/121623739