hi everyone… i don’t really know how to begin this, so i’ll just be honest: i’ve decided to step away from writing fanfics for now. i didn’t want it to come to this — writing has always been something i love, a place i go when things get too heavy. but lately, everything has been too heavy, and i can’t carry it all at once anymore.
recently, my brother passed away. he took his own life. and ever since that moment, it’s felt like the world stopped spinning the same way.
i’ve been trying to keep posting. i’ve been trying to force myself to write and keep the spark alive, but truthfully? i just don’t have the energy anymore. not right now. the grief, the pain, the weight of it all — it’s made writing feel like something i have to survive through instead of something i enjoy.
and beyond that… i think somewhere along the way, i lost the passion. not forever, maybe, but for now. the stories i once dreamed about just feel... far away.
i want to say thank you. truly. thank you for every single read, every sweet comment, every moment you took to engage with my characters or stories. thank you for giving my writing a place to exist. you have no idea how much that meant to me, especially in the quiet moments when i felt invisible outside of this platform.
i might return to finish books like Caroline, Juno, Cologne, or others if the inspiration and strength come back. but i can’t promise that. all i can do right now is focus on healing.
i’m so sorry if this feels like i wasted your time. i never meant to leave things unfinished — i just need to take care of myself. i hope you understand. and i hope you’re all being gentle with yourselves too. we all deserve that.
this might be goodbye, for now. or maybe just "see you later."
either way — thank you for being here with me. ♡