skylle

no access to my anxiolytic place makes me feel confined.
          
          save me, i'm not fine.

currently doing a social media fasting, messenger included. if you wish to reach me, just contact me here

from tagaytay to cavite to muntinlupa to parañaque. although i made it home safe and sound, i almost experienced an anxiety attack. i felt claustrophobic, i felt my breath getting ragged and i was having thoughts na paano kung hindi ako makauwi. i was really close to crying even when i was able to finally ride a jeepney. sobrang haba kasi talaga ng pila kanina, wala masyadong jeep at nawawalan na ako ng pag-asa. i think i was lucky enough that i knew how to do grounding, that i knew i was close to having a cued panic attack. i prevented it from happening. and as someone who has weak lungs and who's prone to respiratory diseases, i'm proud of myself. not only was i able to overcome my anxiety, but i also made it home alive. that's already an achievement for me.
          
          please keep safe everyone! wear masks, caps, hoodies and bring umbrellas with you if you want to go outside. mas okay kung hindi muna kayo lalabas ng bahay tho. kung naulanan kayo ng abo, maligo agad pagkauwi.

thaaaanks for adding poser to your rl. ( ㆆ ㆆ)و♥

kahit anong aya at ilang invite ko sa mga friends ko magbeach since feb 2019, nauuwi pa rin sa staycation 'yung "decision". tama ba 'yon? hahaha
          
          this cycle leaves me no choice but to go alone. pray for me and my freedom-wanting soul!

hindi ko alam bakit ako kinikilig today pero sobrang kinikilig talaga ako????? dahil siguro sa sobrang saya pero 'di ko rin alam bakit masaya ako ngayon jdndjd baka manic lang for today char bye

I PASSED THE BOARD EXAM AAAAAAHHHHHJDJDJD

[NEW READING LIST ALERT!] and [REASON WHY I'M INACTIVE]
          
          I added a new reading list which is dedicated to none other than Peter Parker!
          
          I've been into MCU lately (specifically since July 16th). I've watched and admired MCU movies even before but something changed on that date. 'Twas actually the date I watched Spider-man: Far From Home.
          
          I don't know if anyone here noticed but I have been on a hiatus here since idk when (and on Facebook as well) but I'm actually pretty much active, VERY ACTIVE on Tumblr. And that was where I encountered the fics in my • peter parker • reading list. These fics are amazing, by the way, and I've read more but I don't think the writers there all have wattpad accounts but I found some of them here and I thought that their fics were worth sharing on my profile here and to my friends and mutuals in here as well.
          
          If anyone is interested, you can give those a shot and I promise that you won't regret it!
          
          I still read the fics from my favorite authors here but I can't guarantee much that I could catch up as early as before (Ate @BabaengLutang sorry po if I'm late lagi and thank you for the cameo sa story ni Hope and Ivana huhu i love you ma!). Also, I'm sorry to everyone I haven't replied to in messenger and in facebook groups (Ate @Yoonworks pasabi po kila Ate Bobbie at Ate Xantha sorry po and magrereply po ako soon huhuhu). I'm kind of in a situation right now where I dread and get anxious talking to anyone although I'm working on it, trying to get better. I'm also trying to get into a new light, hence me being inactive here and my other social media accounts. Preparing for my upcoming board exam this October isn't helping much. But all will be well soon! And babalik ako ehehehe
          
          
          - drawmeback • skylle [Julianne Andrea]

i miss writing

Y'all should listen to Chariot by Jacob Lee. Best decision of my life