Olivia Beth

So I just had an idea for a story, not a ff but just like a story in general.
          
          A straight couple are getting married and before the wedding, the brides friends get her a female stripper as a joke, she ends up falling in love with her, and her husband is just an @ss the entire story.
          
          Should I write this?

I’m literally reading gae ff in a church rn.

Hey lol, so I just realized how little friends I actually have. It’s wonderful you know? I have one friend that will talk to me and I think she’s done with me idk. I also talked to my mom about wanting help and she said she would get me someone to talk to... three months ago. 
          
          TW
          
          I’m currently two days clean and things just keep getting worse. I literally don’t even know what I’m doing anymore. Usually no one sees these so I’m not talking to anyone really. I’m just a foot away from my knife and wanted to clear my head.

I’m in geometry rn and want to DIE. I hate this class and I’m dreading world studies.

Bro I started school today and I’m in first period rn and it quiet as Fck in here and I’m sitting here v v uncomfy. I’m STRESSED. I’ll live, hopefully.

I’m sorry for using this app as my personal diary, it’s just that none of my friend go on this app often so there is less of a chance of them seeing this.

Anyone else ever feel like they are looking for attention? Like, you don’t want to because you want to be a good person. But you’re so deprived of it that you need to search for it and when you do you feel guilty?
          
          Or if you’re like me, and you have problems that you’re crying about, and someone calls for you in another room, and you almost don’t want to wipe your tears away because you want someone to notice you’re hurting?
          
          I was just standing and looking at myself in the mirror, and I’ve had problem withe my weight before but today’s society is making me feel better about it, but now I’m finding other problems. I can somehow feel fine about my body, but still go and feel guilty about everything I pick up.
          
          The last time I tried to get help with a mental issue I had, I was told that I was looking for attention. Maybe that’s where all of this is coming from. But now I’m too scared to ask for help because I don’t want to be the type of person that makes everything about them.

I just wrote a huge thing on here about no one giving a sh!t if I ended it. And Wattpad rly just “trouble uploading, try again later” 

Anyone else ever wondered if they ended it, who would actually care? Bts has brought me out of dark places, but who the fuck am I kidding? They don’t know who I am nor will they ever. 
          
          The last time I was looking for help, I was told I was doing it for attention. Now, I’m scared that I am. I can’t talk to my friends without feeling guilty that I’m using them. I don’t want them to sympathize me.
          
          I won’t do it tonight, but it would be nice not to feel like this anymore.

I FINALLY updated ‘heartthrob’ I’m so sorry I made you guys wait. I think I finally fixed my writers block and I have a plan for the book. I feel terrible for not updating in so long, and I will start updating regularly. Have an amazing day!!! ❤️❤️❤️