drblackjack21-

So I just had an idea for a story, not a ff but just like a story in general.
          	
          	A straight couple are getting married and before the wedding, the brides friends get her a female stripper as a joke, she ends up falling in love with her, and her husband is just an @ss the entire story.
          	
          	Should I write this?

drblackjack21-

@aliveinnit BRO I DONT EVEN REMEMBER HAVING THIS IDEA, BUT I CAN TRY
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finelikeanonion

@olivia_beth15 IM SO LATE BUT YOU BETTER WRITE THIS NOW HONEY BUN BEFORE I END YOUR CAREER
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drblackjack21-

So I just had an idea for a story, not a ff but just like a story in general.
          
          A straight couple are getting married and before the wedding, the brides friends get her a female stripper as a joke, she ends up falling in love with her, and her husband is just an @ss the entire story.
          
          Should I write this?

drblackjack21-

@aliveinnit BRO I DONT EVEN REMEMBER HAVING THIS IDEA, BUT I CAN TRY
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finelikeanonion

@olivia_beth15 IM SO LATE BUT YOU BETTER WRITE THIS NOW HONEY BUN BEFORE I END YOUR CAREER
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drblackjack21-

Hey lol, so I just realized how little friends I actually have. It’s wonderful you know? I have one friend that will talk to me and I think she’s done with me idk. I also talked to my mom about wanting help and she said she would get me someone to talk to... three months ago. 
          
          TW
          
          I’m currently two days clean and things just keep getting worse. I literally don’t even know what I’m doing anymore. Usually no one sees these so I’m not talking to anyone really. I’m just a foot away from my knife and wanted to clear my head.

-ANGELKIM-

@olivia_beth15 yk my PMs are always open if you actually need someone to talk to....
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drblackjack21-

Anyone else ever feel like they are looking for attention? Like, you don’t want to because you want to be a good person. But you’re so deprived of it that you need to search for it and when you do you feel guilty?
          
          Or if you’re like me, and you have problems that you’re crying about, and someone calls for you in another room, and you almost don’t want to wipe your tears away because you want someone to notice you’re hurting?
          
          I was just standing and looking at myself in the mirror, and I’ve had problem withe my weight before but today’s society is making me feel better about it, but now I’m finding other problems. I can somehow feel fine about my body, but still go and feel guilty about everything I pick up.
          
          The last time I tried to get help with a mental issue I had, I was told that I was looking for attention. Maybe that’s where all of this is coming from. But now I’m too scared to ask for help because I don’t want to be the type of person that makes everything about them.

tjmax24

@21Bts_army21 you’re welcome
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drblackjack21-

Thank you so much ♥️♥️♥️
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tjmax24

@21Bts_army21 if you truly feel you don’t have anyone you can trust, try calling some support numbers. but be careful ofc :) but that’s only if you feel comfortable enough, but i heard they can help<3
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drblackjack21-

I just wrote a huge thing on here about no one giving a sh!t if I ended it. And Wattpad rly just “trouble uploading, try again later”

butterflog

@21Bts_army21 i don't know you but your hope everything is ok, trust me things will get better eventually
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drblackjack21-

este mensaje puede ser ofensivo 
Anyone else ever wondered if they ended it, who would actually care? Bts has brought me out of dark places, but who the fuck am I kidding? They don’t know who I am nor will they ever. 
          
          The last time I was looking for help, I was told I was doing it for attention. Now, I’m scared that I am. I can’t talk to my friends without feeling guilty that I’m using them. I don’t want them to sympathize me.
          
          I won’t do it tonight, but it would be nice not to feel like this anymore.

hUrrIc4n4lmInd

@olivia_beth15 Thank you, that means so much to me!
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drblackjack21-

@Maahi1105 things get better eventually, I know it doesn’t seem like it. I am in a much better state now than when I wrote that and you can talk to me if you need to, my dms are open
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hUrrIc4n4lmInd

@olivia_beth15 I have been thinking the same thing for a couple of days now.. like, no one cares.. I tried asking for help from my mom but she just put it off as an attention seeking behaviours..
            Sometimes I just feel like screaming so loud.. but I can't. I can't let anyone hear me.
            I literally have so many cuts in my arm from all the sh.. my head hurts from all the headbanging I've done..
            I just wish to jump.. just end it all.. I mean.. who would care??
            Oh, and guess what? I just turned 13..
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