Hello my lovelies!
I know, I know. “She disappeared!! AGAIN.” Honestly at this point I don’t even know if I can say I’m back T.T
This is the first time I’m talking about this, but essentially what happened after ALGTMR was that … it got into my head. It was the first time ANYTHING I had ever written resonated with people on such a scale, and as much as every single comment warms my heart and makes me giggle and kick my feet — it also terrified me.
What if the next thing I write is not good enough? What if that was it? What if I’d always be struggling with the ghost of ALGTMR haunting every single word I write from now on? What if … what if …
And I also think, in hindsight, that the worst possible thing I could have done was to START AN ALGTMR SPIN-OFF. Which was of course exactly what I did.
I’ve been spending the whole of last year trying to get out of this mental trap (hence the hiatus) and honestly? I’m not sure I’m even out of it yet. I’ve been starting and stopping a bunch of writing with no end in sight. I think it’s necessary to get it out of my system — even as each rewritten rewritten chapter frustrates me.
Will I get back to AGGTD? I don’t know. Will I continue writing? Absolutely. Will it be something I’ll finally be satisfied enough to publish? Maybe.
All I know is that this fight with me is not over — and I intend to see it through till the end.
xoxo drizzlestarstone, 14/5/25