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hhi can I clear up any doubts? hhhha I just didn't understand that from the prologue directly to chapter 1, like they had just bumped into each other in the school and in chapter 1 they had slept together and something like that uhmm i think I have brain delay

I've almost finished posting all the chapters for I Don't Know Ya and I'm actually completely unsure of what I want to write next.
          
          I wanted to take a step back from the YTTD fandom for a while and start posting these Genshin fics I've been keeping on hold for months so I finally finish them lol. But uuuuuh. There's also several other Shin fics I've thought about that I'm not sure I want to pursue right now, or later, or at all.
          
          One of them I know I wanna do. I created a one-shot, posted it, and now I wanna make a full story of it but I,,
          
          sometimes I feel like I just do this for the validation, yknow? I did my best to rush IDKY because I craved compliments on my writing. I have some sort of praise thing and a lack of people in my life who like to compliment me even when I'm doing alright lol. I graduated and suddenly my support system was gone (my wonderful teachers)
          
          I really love writing. I love writing and that's why when i spend all this time on these stories, I want other people to love them too. When I spend 40 hours in the span of a college term working on a fic obsessively and it bombs I wonder what other things I could've been doing instead of wasting all of our time.
          
          When I get a job, my creativity will either go through the roof or my writing career will end. For the sake of my 20 unfinished stories and for all of you who care, I hope it's the former

it's actually really strange for me to be an author and reader of fanfiction. When I'm writing, obviously all my readers are non-binary (not exactly gender-neutral... just non-binary??) and I get to used to reading my own content (writing, editing, rereading, rereading again...) that I forget that the rest of the fanfiction world is a lot of just female x readers. it feels so dysphoric to read something like that and I know a lot of people feel the same, especially those who are ftm (or ftnb) or just identify as male. i know fanfiction was originally something women leaned more into but it still blows my mind when I'm reading a fic and the reader is referred to as a "she." 
          
          does this even make any sense? will anyone even see this? lol.
          
          see you guys in the new year.

is it absolutely horrible if I change the name of my fic real quick...

hey I lied wotw is going to start coming out probably this week

Also I made fanart for my Die With a Smile one shot if anyone wants to see.... @ yshsislnd on Instagram

based on how things are going, I think updates for writing on the wall will begin coming out by the end of January? can't promise anything but I finished my finals so I have all the time in the world to just slave away over my laptop and write my shitty little stories
          
          make sure u eat and hydrate until then 

the best part about Writing on the Wall is that I actually have the whole storyline figured out. I know everything that's going to happen, unlike in any other fics I've ever started. I'm just so god damn lazy and dont wanna write the details.

Wattpad is doing this very silly thing where I only get post notifications when they want to send me an advertisement, but at least when I open the app, there's a number on my notification tab showing me I have notifs, right?
          
          WRONG. THEY TOOK THAT AWAY FROM ME TOO. woke up and opened wattpad and my notifs tab had no sign of new notifs just at a glance but then I OPENED it and there were like FIFTY from just yesterday wtf.
          
          wattpad fix ur shit
          
          also I'm very sorry to all of u about the way the election turned out bc I know youre all queer, as am I. Luckily for me I live in one of the... few blue states this time (probably one of the bluest states in the nation) but I know that's not the case for everyone. stay safe 

im excited for WOTW for several reasons. I'm actually planning out the story and figuring things out before I write it, it's gonna be a little bit more angsty than the last two (maybe?), and I'm actually gonna write a ...... sex scene. OMG! crazy I know. it's actually a very sad sex scene. have fun with that when it happens