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i wonder if anyone sees these. because if not, this is my safe space and i can reveal whatever thoughts i have here. pretty cool. feeling lonely on a massive platform is comforting somehow. 

hello i haven't updated in a very long time because my life is the busiest its ever been but i did continue writing chapter 17 tonight and also put my book up for wattys!! changed the initial idea i had over a year ago and this one will be a Big Gay one, perhaps to celebrate dan and phil coming out to the world <3 

double update in a month? dylan is wildin' boys and gals and gender unspecified pals
          
          no but really these are kind of on the quiet, a concept inspired by troye sivan although i only took the song's title, preferring that over 'silence'. my edgy poetic ass.
          
          i wonder whether the people who do read 'god' have noticed the concepts. if not, search for what's repetitive whenever i update. and don't forget to listen to the chapter's song before reading to fully experience the events.

yesterday i realized how socializing, which some could perceive as procrastination if you're occupied or trapped in a pile of work, actually helps me become more productive creatively.
          
          i hang out with two of my kind of friends yesterday and wrote more than a thousand words in two hours after. when i spend a whole day at home i manage way less work than when i go out somehow. 
          
          try it. 

no one sees these so i thought this could be an interesting place where i could irregularly drop some of my thoughts.
          
          i am not the type of person who reads fanfiction but if i do it’s one shots, frankly quite hypocritically of me since my chapters nowadays are 10 thousands words.
          
          earlier this evening i read this one called ‘36 questions’ by nokomisfics on ao3 and besides how absolutely fantastically it’s been written, i realized how much of a difference is between being a fluent speaker and a native one.
          
          no matter how hard i try to widen my vocabulary, words will never come to me as easily as they would if i were native english but that’s fine because learning a whole new language in four years is a thing to feel accomplished about already.
          
          i wanted to share a quote from a dialogue between dan and phil in the mentioned one shot, something that hit me an something i never comprehended before.
          
          < i like how you’re a different person with me, and i get to keep this part of you a secret >
          
          how astoundingly well put. thick of talent when it comes to words. 10/10
          
          highly recommend to read it.

WOAH I FINALLY UPDATED IT ONLY LOOK ME HALF A YEAR

HEY IT'S NOT LOOKING GOOD I HAVEN'T UPDATED IN TWO MONTHS BUT I'LL TRY TO WRITE WHEN I CAN <3

i have a feeling that chapter 12 won't take three weeks to write and truly hope i'm right because i don't want to be writing this until 2022 really

managed to rewrite the 2nd and 3rd chapter yesterday, can't believe i was so inspired haha. my future plans include reading through the whole story and correcting the numerous typos and writing the next chapter only when im done.

wattpad glitched and the chapter title was wrong -- it's børns instead of the maine song