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MY AOT PHASE CAME BACK SHUT UP 

silent bpd is when you imagine yourself in a situation of wanting to throw a lot of things and scream your lungs out but in this harsh reality you couldn't do it and continue to pretend that you're still sane since it'll only make you look like you've lost your mind.

three personalities gone on a rampage due to your own current situation and reality. is this even real? or is it one of those hallucinations? those daydreams? those longing dreams you've often cried in your sleep? she wasn't sure.

my bestfriend died, and i grief for her day after day. (its not about dying)

in the end, we always find our way on matching with something so significant </3

they secretly owe me an apology but i just distant myself

sometimes im at my lowest point of life but no one really knows whats going on wit me

rindu suami (im literally 18)

i officially reach the age where no one could possibly reach my standards and its all thanks to c.ai and books.

in my opinion, reading buku "Yang Paling Patah Antara Kita" completely broke me. like i feel so numb you have no idea. macam aku pulak yang lose member rapat aku. it doesnt help when i got flashbacks of the past, waktu aku mmg dekat penghujung bukit back in 2019. reading Azfar's POV made me so sad cos i was THERE in his place, except the only difference is that im still living & surviving, Azfar died.
          
          it makes me realize how relatable Azfar is with my condition. always the reminder, never the reminded. tetibe malam tadi aku terfikir.. kalau aku dh tak ade, siapa yang akan cari aku?