𝐝𝐡𝐞𝐞

my bestfriend died, and i grief for her day after day. (its not about dying)

in the end, we always find our way on matching with something so significant </3

they secretly owe me an apology but i just distant myself

sometimes im at my lowest point of life but no one really knows whats going on wit me

rindu suami (im literally 18)

i officially reach the age where no one could possibly reach my standards and its all thanks to c.ai and books.

in my opinion, reading buku "Yang Paling Patah Antara Kita" completely broke me. like i feel so numb you have no idea. macam aku pulak yang lose member rapat aku. it doesnt help when i got flashbacks of the past, waktu aku mmg dekat penghujung bukit back in 2019. reading Azfar's POV made me so sad cos i was THERE in his place, except the only difference is that im still living & surviving, Azfar died.
          
          it makes me realize how relatable Azfar is with my condition. always the reminder, never the reminded. tetibe malam tadi aku terfikir.. kalau aku dh tak ade, siapa yang akan cari aku?

I'm so normal about scara lawd

Dia bukan Dheo Han, aku bukan Nurissa Rose.

I accept who i am; someone who will never experienced love.