Please don't give up on this. I literally love this SO much; we all do. Don't be too hard on yourself, the book is friggin amazing! And don't beat yourself up over it, just because something starts off a certain way doesn't mean it has to end that way. Throughout the book I can tell how much and how well your writing skills progress and progress, and it is truly a beautiful book. Everything has got to start off somewhere. So it didn't start off exactly how you wanted it to, oh well. Finish it off with a bang... But most importantly enjoy it. Writing is supposed to be fun, not a chore. If you aren't enjoying it anymore, we understand. X