ech0st

“I’m doing good now, I can finish writing the chapter this week”
          	
          	They did not, in fact, write that week.

ech0st

GUYS IM ALIVE AND WANNA SAY ADULT LIFE IS NOT POGGERS,,, but at least I have my own place now :D
          
          also I graduated! (late but shhhh) and if I could graduate super late then you can do that thing you’re putting off,,, you got this!

ech0st

@emo_grinch_ thanks,,, I’m really happy you’re alive too and I’m proud of you for staying alive :]
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ech0st

Forgot to say but I’m probably gonna revise the book before updating it, but am alive so will do that this week :]
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_quackitysbeanie

this is in no way to rush you or anything take your time if you need it, but do you have plans for finishing the book at all?

ech0st

Yes! I kinda lost motivation and got super depressed for a bit but I’ve discovered caffeine addiction and am writing again :)
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ech0st

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I don’t wanna do anything anymore. I don’t wanna die, I just wanna stop existing. I’m not gonna pass my classes. Im not gonna graduate or get a degree. I’m not gonna finish my fucking album. I’m not gonna finish that stupid animation. I’m not gonna finish editing that video. If could, I would just stop everything. I wouldn’t be used and manipulated by the guy who fucking touched me as a kid. I wouldn’t eat one more fucking bite. I wouldn’t think about how I feel anymore. I just wanna stop. 

ech0st

Oh wow I never saw this reply,,, thank you so much! Really thanks. I probably woulda pushed away help at the time but I’ve gotten better since then and haven’t had such a bad depressive episode since then :) 
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peachesntrees

@ech0st I know that these are just words and I'm so sorry that I didn't check sooner, but can I maybe help you? Are you comfortable sharing more or could you maybe let me know that you're safe? I'm sorry, I know I'm probably bothering you and coming off as fake, I probably wouldn't even respond if I were in your shoes, but I do really care and would love to do anything I can, within reason, if you'd like.
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ech0st

There is no legitimate reason I matter. No one would miss me. I sorta try to reach out, no one cares. They just leave me on read. It’s fine, I don’t deserve anything anyways, but it still kinda stings. Just confirms I really don’t matter. I really don’t.