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VENTING//
I genuinely hate that I'm single now. I literally have no one who I can talk to. I have absolutely have zero friends online and irl (except for my best friend I love her sm) and now? I feel like I'm completely alone. I didn't know what love bombing was and now that I've experienced it that shit hurts.
I was genuinely being used for their personal.. entertainment, I feel like that one chapter of Archangel where Shadow and Saphire - yeah I'm not gonna finish that..
Anyways, what now? Wait five years later for my next potential love interest? Yeah no. They said "I knew I was hurting you" THEN WHY DIDN'T YOU JUST BREAK UP WITH ME THEN??? This SO doesn't help my depression at ALL.
It's like whoever I meet they instantly become toxic. I just want everything to go back to how they were in 2022 where I had the perfect relationship, I was happy. I didn't have to worry about things like this. And now I'M the bitch for expressing my feelings??
Yeah fuck that.
Sorry about this I just had to vent a little. Too many bottled up feelings.