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i fucking hate my family. do they not realise that words have meaning to it. i fucking hate them so much.

my parents aren't treating my second eldest brother right. if he's doing something bad, explain to him that its bad or talk softly to him instead of beating him. it's gonna make it worse. im so scared he'll end his life or just run away but i dont want that to happen. im so so scared.

happy birthday to me!!!
          my school best friend (Imaan) wished me first, tbh i wasn't expecting that she would call me bc school is over and i thought she maybe forgot but she didn't!! I love her so much <3
          all my online friends and school friends wished me i feel kind of at peace, that shouldn't happen lol.
          and as always my so called 'cousin bsf' didn't even think of wishing me but that's okay, nothing new she's a bitch anyways.
          I love all those people who wished me I LOVE YOU GUYS SO SO MUCH <333

my mom and dad deserve better.
          i wish i could change everything.
          i hate to see them cry. i hate to live like this.

I haven't paid my fee for books and my principal sent me back home today. great, i can't even study now ;')

I hate my mom so much. she has to ruin everything, EVERYTIME. we were going to buy foot wears but my mom has to make drama and cry. ofc, OFC SHE HAD TO RUIN IT.

I don't know if we will be able to celebrate eid this year or not. Cause my family is on debt and we have to pay it. Either that or no eid.

I just got my period. It's 1:47 am and my stomach hurts so bad. I can't even move :((

I miss my old days with family, we all were happy. There were no loans, no one was in dept. Everything was great. But eventually, we lost money and happiness. 

I wanted to write stories. But my motivation is long gone.