myn edina

happy birthday hehe

tadi buat dass
          results : 
          depression 11 
          anxiety 10 
          stress 10
          
          pihak prw asked me to leave my phone number
          and she (the pic) said, she can see it from my face
          haha

2024 wasnt that great, 
          but im enjoying the process.
          those love moments
          and also those fallen times
          as i said  just get thru it
          and see how you heal later.
          may the coming soon,
          become more surprise 
          with happiness,
          and may this person,
          madina,
          always in blessings
          love you, 
          thankyou for staying here,
          thankyou for all the fights,
          thank you madina ♡
          

december entry lol

hi wp?
          its just me and the depressed me again
          hehe

just some random day to be depressed.
          again.

yesterday was one year anniversary of this journey
          and im super proud with myself.
          thankyou for always believe in yourself
          that you can do it every f*king time.
          thankyou for holding onto it, 
          in every seconds of your breath.
          madina, im the proudest human of being you.
          indeed.

you were the best but youre the worst
          as sick as it sounds
          i loved you first
          i was a di* 
          it is what it is
          a habit to kick, the age old curse
          i tend to laugh whenever im sad
          i stare at the crash, it actually works
          making amends, that shit never ends
          im wrong again,
          wrong again. 

deep in my own hurt locker.

i am sorry.
          for myself.