myn edina

hi wp?
          its just me and the depressed me again
          hehe

just some random day to be depressed.
          again.

yesterday was one year anniversary of this journey
          and im super proud with myself.
          thankyou for always believe in yourself
          that you can do it every f*king time.
          thankyou for holding onto it, 
          in every seconds of your breath.
          madina, im the proudest human of being you.
          indeed.

you were the best but youre the worst
          as sick as it sounds
          i loved you first
          i was a di* 
          it is what it is
          a habit to kick, the age old curse
          i tend to laugh whenever im sad
          i stare at the crash, it actually works
          making amends, that shit never ends
          im wrong again,
          wrong again. 

deep in my own hurt locker.

i am sorry.
          for myself.
          

if only this girl not afraid of something sharp to touch the skin.
          

counting days to academic stress 

mournfully to announce, my reading buddy is gone for good this maghrib. as im the one who found him dying. im in grieve, and grieving. my love, oscar. i love you ♡

actually, i like to hide. i love it. 
          that is why i dont like ppl posting pics of me
          yeah ik you look great in there
          theres nothing wrong w my face either
          just, i hate it. i dont want to give ppl the update
          how can you have that audacity to give them tho?