★ 𝐡 𝐨 𝐬 𝐭 𝐚 𝐠 𝐞 ★

I arise from the dead!
          
          I moved to AO3, my username is ohnnop
          
          I'm a bit more active there but not really lmao. I was mostly focusing on school work.

I'm back boissssss
          
          I'm mostly focusing on my studies so I haven't been on for like a month but hello!

i changed my classes but they just became worse

I can't I can't
          
          
          man im starting freshman year and im already stressing. 

can't my parents understand I can't and won't be them?
          
          I'm not a duplicate,im not fabricated as they stupid children's toy to be what they want. I just wish they understood me more, I try understanding them but they never listen to me when I need them.

they cut my wifi right as i was writing my story on Ao3
          
          im gonna cut an asshole

I don't know how to use Ao3 and i lost my fucking work-
          
          IM-

I'm angry?
          
          Mental illness and when to know you can't use it as a fucking excuse.
          If you state you have depression, anxiety, or any issue that you can depict reality from fiction, your dight from wrong isn't a fucking excuse.
          
          I'm sick of these people blaming it on their depression or any other illness for their fucking actions. You don't use depression as a trend, you don't say DePreSsIon TINGZ like a basic ass generic fake.
          
          Also, I live in America and when the president states that shooters were mentally ill, that they had a problem.
          Why the fuck are you defending a man who could tell what was right and what was wrong. That man knew whatever the fuck he was doing when he decided to murder the lives of innocent. And when that man targeted people because of their ethnicity, and color of skin? A big fuck you buddy, You're a murderer. You killed people who had FAMILIES. You didn't give a shit about the people who would miss them for fucks sake.

i'll be writing on ao3 a week after i get into school, just for funsies

I looked at my highschool schedule, it's an idea of what I may have, and I hate it so much.
          
          I don't want to take an army-like class, I would like to take choirs but my heart is set on art, painting, creating a story with an image. 
          
          Im not in any honorary classes which is great, those took a toll on my mental health in 8th, stress is just too much when given an assignment that requires so much when you struggle with other things at the same time. 
          
          I just hope they change the schedule before I start classes, I don't want to feel trapped again.