@eiramAnael the truth is....
You have been used so many times by people, that you are actually starting to reason with them. You have lost all hope in yourself, because you set your standards pretty low, and gave everybody a chance. The truth is, you are giving up on yourself and settling for less.
But the real truth is....
You don't actually believe in what you said, you just said it because that is what your mind thinks, not your heart. That is what they are telling you, not what you discovered yourself.
You are way too beautiful to be a toy.