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things i want to learn ─ classical dance, knitting, sign language, and how to play guitar. oh and driving! carr

just realized i'm asking for too much: someone who's going to be only mine.

papa loves maa, life's beautiful.

ladki hui toh kashi, ladka hua toh kush

can't handle slightest dislike from someone, hate is a far cry . . . people around, need to walk on eggshells.

i'd give away my life for you but 
                    don't ask me to share my food. 

because saying his name out loud makes it real in a way that thinking about him doesn't 

she was his heart, walking outside his body.

दिल वालों की दिल्ली ─ my birthplace. 
            
            i'm a delhi girl, & my contrasting traits: 
            
            • momos nahi khaati, 'cause i don't eat onion and garlic • gaali nahi deti, i don't like it when people do it infront of me either • yahan pollution hai, yes. par saans mujhe yahin aati haii

was going through suggestions on snap, came across a profile ─ classmate, from 6th to 10th standard ─ one of the very few guys i had even interacted with & i added him without a second thought. bro texted, i replied and then we talked. he reminded me of my golden days, when i used to be a topper and even teased me about how quiet i used to be.

marathi one through sanchi 

meri family ke liye toh caste bhi itni importance rakhti hai! (mere liye khud) hey bhagwaan! kis insaan se pyaar ho gaya?! T-T 

ब्राह्मण और जाट बुद्धि ─ would we even get along? kya gharwale shaadi karayenge? un'he toh pata bhi nahi hai that i like him ─ jab tak mai doctor banungi kya vo mera wait karenge? god will make him do!

love me for an eternity but 
                        don't touch me at all

it's back! nothing fancy: simple black thermosteel tumbler, it was a gift from zscaler. aur bhi kaafi saara achha saamaan tha. khikhikhi

getting attached to materialistic things is so frustrating ─ papa left my water bottle in uncle's car and since that day, whenever i'd be feeling low i cried. why? i missed my bottle, i missed her. 
            
            mujhe rona pasand haii

i need more yellow sketch pens. 
            
            any light colour would do too though. 

aisa bracelet pehen liya ─ apni saari female friends ko unka deserving bollywood moment experience karne ko mil gaya tha, sabke dupatte usmein hi iljhe jaa rahe the

was calling kids in pairs for a game, roll number wise and there came a guy with a girl. he lost deliberately. i even called him out, "arey! jaanke haar raha hai?" & he smiled shyly. she won ofc! :)

white dress, mera pehle suit. pragati ka lipbalm, it was real good i'll get the same. students of class 2, annoyingly adorable. they were all addressing me as "ma'am", we tried playing games, while they tried keeping their hyperactivity in check & failed miserably. saare bacche pyaare the ─ vidyanshi my favourite one. aur haan, didn't click any photos-

i had to go out on a bike with my chachu aur maine papa ko ek raat pehle hi bata diya ─ itne pareshaan ho gayeee! 
            
            like, kya chahiye? kyu jaana hai? mai yahin se dila launga. mai 2-3 saal mein ek baari bike pr baithti hun and it was one of those time and after that i realized why's he so protective!! forever grateful!! 
            
            either it's my ptsd or whatsoever but . . . i might not even want to drive a car, forever a passenger princess, happily. meri se nahi li jayegi yeh faaltu ki tension and there are so many people to drive me around . . . vo toh vaise bhi itna pyaara hai, mana nahi karega 
            
            aur vaise bhi, i love walking. 8km ko toh mai walking distance samajhti hun, thanks to vrindavan ki parikrima <3

heartbreak: papa ne car wash ke baad paer saaf karke baithne ko keh diya, pehli baar hua aisaa! i won't recover

shaadi ke baad pati ko guitar bajana seekhne ko kehna zyada thodi ho jayega? itna toh mere liye kar hi sakte hain. khikhikhi

2019, November, for the very first time if i think about it, his cousin's wedding. age 11 & 13. vaguely remember trying to hide behind my mum since it was the first time the two families were meeting. i didn't like meething new people.