Sometimes I just wish I could die... when it's too much, when life doesn't make sense, when I think about the future and I can't see anything good or something that's worth it living for...
When I just wish it's all over, when I wish I could leave this damn place called earth, which is not enough, which I am just tired from, 'cause it's so difficult to live in here. But... there is still a flicker of hope, like Niall taught me. And when I treat people with kindness, like Harry taught me, they will treat me the same way and they will make my life a little bit better. When I live my dream and I never give up, like Liam told me, I can reach the End of the way that I want to go. When I come into a room and I see other people doing something, it makes my day when I can say "vas' happenin?" like Zayn always did. And if nothing of these things ever happen, and I'm thinking, I'm never gonna be happy again, I just remeber to do it the tommo way, and my life is okay again...
Sorry für das, ich sitze im dunklen Hausflur und denke nach. That's the moment when life hits hard...