elistheskittle

tomorrow im going to school. IM SCARED I DUNNO ANYONE BUT THEY ALL KNOW EACH OTHER. (im going to  8th grade for anyone wondering, i moved to another city and changed school this year.) AAAAAAAAAAA

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{@ elistheskittle  } good luck
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elistheskittle

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!VENT!
          
          i came out as transgender to some of my friends five days ago. some of them were really supportive, others didnt give a shit or didnt respond to my texts. I personally am agender, using he/they prns, and im really sure abt my identity, but i dunno if my transphobic friend is going to take it well. 
          
          I still didnt find the courage to come out to my parents- even to tell them abt "liking girls" stuff or my gf- bc im just so fcking scared of how my mom will react, abd im too emotionally ubstable to start a convo abt that with my ally a
          dad, soooo...... im so scared about being trans. I feel like im never going to be who i am truly, in public. I HATE having a feminine voice, a chest that can be seen as female, not having a binder, misgendering myself all the time, thinking if coming out to people i know that are transmed will get me beaten up, not feeling comfortable with people saying your deadname.........
          
          i could go on for hours, but i need to rest.
          hope no one sees this
          -Elia

elistheskittle

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          i want to fucking get a diagnosis. people only take you seriously when you have a diagnosis. i have a problem with good, okay, but its not an eating disorder. i genuenly can't eat some thingss because only the thoight of eating them makes me throw up. it's like picky eating, but EXTREME picky eating. i can't eat anything that has been thouched with bare or/and dirty hands, i can't eat things with a complicated texture, like fish or meat with nervs or veins or anything like that. i always have to smell everything before i eat it or drink it, and i can't finish the portion. i dunno wtf is wrong with me. i think it may be something that has to do with the autistic spectrum, because i have experieced other symptoms besides food, but i have no idea whats wrong with me.

elistheskittle

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i went to a pride parade yesterday, and i was really happy and excited about it! sadly my gf couldn't go with my bc of her parents, but we'll meet tuesday!
          
          my mom didnt want to let me go tger bc shes homophobic, but i really insisted on it so i went there!
          
          today she called me selfish bc i didnt want to go on a walk with my cousin (i was really tired bc we walked a lot at the parade) and she said that i have to do everything she says or else ill get on detention, which is the most fucked up thing in the world. she expects me to act like a grown up adult, and then she treats me like a child when i express my opinion or i annoy her. 
          
          She doesnt love me. She loves the idea of me. When she was talking about me going to the parade, i saw her disgusted, and i felt like the tiniest weakest most stupid person in the world. why can't she love me for who i am?

little_miss_ordinary

@confuzzed_teen  oggi o domani (non mi ricordo) va a farsi il tampone e se tutto va bene finisce la quarantena, quindi speriamo perché è da un secolo che  non la vedo
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elistheskittle

@ confuzzed_teen  cavoli, mi dispiace. spero che la tua amica stia meglio
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little_miss_ordinary

@confuzzed_teen  mi dispiace che la tua ragazza non sia potuta venire, ma almeno sei andata al pride! Io dovevo andarci oggi, ma la mia bestie con cui volevo andarci è un quarantena e non me la sento di andare da sola (anche perché i miei sono omofobi e non mi permetterebbero mai di andarci, se andavo con la mia bestie avevo una scusa)
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