✧✿ ella ✿✧

it's 6:45 AM and i am already on the car for an unnecessarily long and far away forensics meet running off of kwik trip over coffee and blasting aaron tveit

I'm tired and need to cry myself to sleep soon so here i am saying things while i still can
          My heart is dying for every woman everywhere who has ever been denied access to lifesaving healthcare because some rich male politicians decided they didn't need it. And now our country is going into the hands of a 34-time felon who's also a racist, r@pist homophobe, and im genuinely terrified at what this has come to. I've never been one for american pride but the men and women who made this country intending for it to be a safe and free land would be so insanely disappointed in everyone with power right now. If you haven't spoken up already, do so, because nothing ever happens otherwise. Fight like hell my friends, fight like hell

Ponyboy, I asked the nurse to give you this book so you could finish it. The doctor came in a while ago but I knew anyway. I keep getting tireder and tireder. Listen, I don't mind dying now. It's worth it. It's worth saving those kids. Their lives are worth more than mine, they have more to live for. Some of their parents came by to thank me and I know it was worth it. Tell Dally it's worth it. I'm just going to miss you guys. I've been thinking about it, and that poem, that guy that wrote it, he meant you're gold when you're a kid, like green. When you're a kid
          everything's new, dawn. It's just when you get used to everything that it's day. Like the way you dig sunsets, Pony. That's gold. Keep that way, it's a good way to be. I want you to tell Dally to look at one. He'll probably think you're crazy, but ask for me. I don't think he's ever really seen a sunset. And don't be so bugged over being a greaser. You still have a lot o f time to make yourself be what you want. There's still lots of good in the world. Tell Dally. I don't think he knows.
          Your buddy, Johnny.
          
          surefire way to be an emotional wreck heading to science even when you've read the ending multiple times and know full well what's coming

happy National Swing Day!!

if you've never sang the Queen of the Night aria back to back with Dead Girl walking while you and your friends are supposed to be practicing solo and ensemble music, i'm just gonna say, you're severely missing out

If anyone here has no life (like me) meet me at Kwik Trip at 2am we're gonna binge children's shows and listen to the Hamilton polka on repeat I'm bringing pizza

GUESS WHO'S GOING TO THE STATE MATH MEET!
          
          Yes I did listen to Do This Thing from Mean Girls on repeat but honestly what else was I supposed to do

I love having like 10 missing algebra assignments from before break and deciding not to do them until after new years because i'd still have like a week, then forgetting and now having two days left and getting horrible cramps the minute i actually get motivation to get them done
          
          Like ok universe if you want me to fail your point has been made you can stop now

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
          
          My resolution is that I'm not gonna die

did anyone else's autistic mind just randomly decide a couple days ago that cold water is now their enemy?
          
          like whenever i feel like hydrating myself i have to either get a glass of hot/warm water and drink that or get a plastic bottle of water from the fridge because that being cold is fine, plus my skin is so dry rn since washing hands with warm water 
          
          isn't being neurodivergent just SO fun?