elleofhearts

*sigh* ok. So... I was tagged by @Aliyaeh to do this. So im gonna do it.
          
          1)First name: Elle
          2)where you from/Ethnicity: Ft.Lauderdale/black is black
          3)Amusement park or water park: Amusement park for sure
          4)art skill: drawing, making collages, painting with watercolor,im  good with pen and indian ink only
          5)straight or gay ships?: i dont ship anyone. Ever.
          6)thoughts on zayn malik: yes and no. I used to like zayn but now im completely turned off by him. Hes too inconsistent but i still kind of like him because, you know there WAS a time when i thought he was a genuine person.
          7)do i want kids: generally, no, but if i change my mind its probably only going to be 1 child
          8)any other languages: love $̲̅(̲̅ ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°̲̅)̲̅$̲̅ and some french ( je ne suis pas bien tho)
          9)favorite person: idk. I like people in general but if i gotta choose one it would maybe be dan avidan so we can DECRIMINALIZE together.
          10)ever been hospitalized?: maybe as a baby for my eczema but as far as i know for sure, nope.
          11)longest time without internet?: a month i think. But not having internet doesnt bother me much anyway.
          12)7 celebs to have dinner with: ok...john boyega, cole spouse, Barack Obama, jim Carey , sherly Caesar, (young) lawrence hilton-jacobs, eddie murphy
          13)embarrassing nicknam: will not disclose
          14)how many states or countries visited: ive never travelled outside the US and ive only been to Georgia
          15)favorite singer: idk too many. 
          16)what do i do when mad or sad: when im mad, i get really snippy and hurtfully sarcastic but when sad im really quiet and emotional internally
          
          
          Btw as is stated before on my account, i am inactive on this account but you can check out my tumblr at littlebrightfighter.tumblr.com

Hi wattpad community. I know ive been inactive on here for quite a while now. I hanvnt been commenting much. I havnt been reading any stories at all lately. As in like a year now. I had ideas of what i wanted my previous story to be but it didnt work out. Ive graduated high school and will be going to college now. My activity has been stagnant as it were and i know i wont be using this app any more considering ill be going to college. My bottom line is that im leaving the wattpad crowd. Theres just a severe lack of excitement in stories. It was great when i first got on here two years ago but i think ive outgrown wattpad and that its time for me to let it go. It just doesnt hold my attention like it used to. And thats ok. I hope to quality of the content goes up and get better. I hope you writers go on to do better than Wattpad if youd like to. I hope my fellow readers will find all types of stories they like, not just a few genres. Goodbye wattpad, it really was great while it lasted. Goodbye to those who have enjoyed my presence un the comment section as well. (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧ 

Hey y'all, change in plans for my book, I'm not going to update it anymore. I thought I'd like to write a book myself and the idea seemed great at the time but now I'm not feeling it anymore. If someone wants to take over story and make it their own, please message me about it, otherwise I'm probably going to Unpublish it and that be that. Thanks to everyone who read my book though, it means a lot that you did but I don't think I can take the book any further.

Hey everyone, I know I've been away for such a while but I've got a chapter in the works for my book 'a is for Apple' before I release the aforementioned chapter + a rlly long chapter that's got so much going on, it's really good ,so if your still reading it, be on the lookout for it hopefully sometime this week .

http://blackgirllonghair.com/2015/07/video-i-grew-up-learning-how-to-protect-men-who-hate-me-spoken-word-poets-powerfully-describe-black-misogyny/
          
          This is a really powerful spoken word pem that I think every black woman/young lady/girl/female can relate to to at least some extent.

I FVCKING KNEW IT! FNAF4 WAS RELEASED TO- FREAKING- DAY. I KNEW IT WAS GING TO RELEASE EARLY BEFORE SCOTT ANNOUNCED IT LAST WEEK. I EVEN KNEW THERE WAS GOING TO BE A SPECIAL RELEASE FOR HOLLOWEEN!!! MARK! WHERE ARE YOU???!!!

Then theres the concern that I cant really talk about guys I find attractive, like niall. I cant really show them a picture of them and be like "he is SO cute! he is going to be my husband one day! he can get it any day! he is my bae!" I cant really fangirl in front of my family. I have to suppress it around them, I have to hide it. Arent black women already barred from not being able to express certain emotions and expressing certain thoughts already? The suffering in silence seems to never end. If its not one thing its another. Its strange that I cant be caught watching 1D edits on youtube without the judgemental atmosphere looming in the air. Its never outright stated but its still there. While this is discouraging im not going to allow for it to shy away from dating outside my own race, should the chance come by. I would be dating the dude, not my family. Its really frustrating.  That it seems that black women seem to be restricted to so much by so much.

I just kinda feel like that...I dont know what would happen if I got a boyfriend thats a different race than me...I mean what would happen if I found that one guy that was right for me and he wasnt black? Niall gives me butterflies. Thats no secret. I love that hes so cute and awkward and gorgeous and a beautiful person and child-like at times and is playful and happy all the time, sneaker AND snapback game ALWAYS on fleek with a hint of urban flare to the way he dresses (my fvcking favorite part), hes A real joker. I mean look at niall. Weve seen him on stage before being himself kidding around and whatnot. I want a guy like that. Then why is it that when I envision a dude looking like niall approaching me in public (yeah right, i have yet for this to happen) when Im with my mom, I get SOO uneasy. Because of my mom  seeing my attraction to someone of a different race than me. How would she react with me kissing him, us holding hands,  being huddled up cuddled up caked up with eachother? and dare I say, like those prefrences when youre caught almost getting it on? I feel like Id be seen different in my moms eyes. Maybe even a failure in a way, a dissapointment. It shouldnt have to be this way. My family has pretty much already "predicted" that im going to be romantically interested in non-black men from an early age despite living in the urban( read: ghetto) cities all my life but I can tell theyre still not going to accept it the same way if I would date/marry a black dude. Its f---ing annoying to think that dinner would be SO uncomfortable with my family or with his just because he and I dont match colors. I shouldnt be made fun of just because of something like this. I shouldnt have to feel this way. Its poison and I hate it. I dont use the word hate loosely or just throw it around so this is a big thing for me. I just wish this wasnt something id have to worry about. Ever. The cost of being different. I tell you. It'd be sorta strange, you know?

Its come to my attention that there are more and more 1D interracial  writers wtop writing their books. Really good author too. Why is this? Anyone know why? Ive been off for a while due to life and etc. so IDK. Anyone knows what happened to brianajenkens? She just poof! gone! What is goin g on in our fandom and even black community and how we treat eachother? WTF is going on?

I've noticed all the recent 1D interracial stories popping up and I know if I did the boys have too. I really would like to know whats their reaction to all these interracial prefs popping up. Did they think that black and multicultural girls are just now liking them? or are they like "fvck yeah! black girls like us, they made preferences for themselves, were tired of the same silky haired, milk white descriptions of the girl in the prefs anyway." I would love to know.