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Sneak peak of the upcoming chapter because I’m genuinely so chuffed that I could finally put into words this feeling,
Because when your so physically low you don’t have the energy to retwire thoughts, to fight them, to remind yourself of the good that still exists despite all the shit. To remember that when the numbness fades you do care.
They are just there and it can feel like your swimming in them, trying to stay afloat. but swimming quickly turns into drowning, because again your tired, your bodies tired, your mind is tired. You have no more fight left in you because you were already done before you even stepped foot into the water.
P.s I promise it’s got some happy in the chapter to x