elmothesunflower_

I got some bad news today. Or rather I found something bad out at the worst moment. Either way something shitty happened. I don't know how I feel but in short I am scared to sleep. Thank you for your time :)
          	
          	Elmo xx

elmothesunflower_

@Diamondgirl2007 thank you so much, same for you <3
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Diamondgirl2007

@error_elmoo I'm glad to know you're doing better and you're getting better sleep! If you ever need someone to talk to you can talk to me <3 You'll be okay!❤
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elmothesunflower_

@Diamondgirl2007 I'll be completely honest I don't remember what happened. If it's what I think it was I believe I was very scared at the time. I've gotten better with dealing with the  news as what I believe it is still effects me a lot. I'm doing very well now though! And I sleep a lot better now too
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elmothesunflower_

I got some bad news today. Or rather I found something bad out at the worst moment. Either way something shitty happened. I don't know how I feel but in short I am scared to sleep. Thank you for your time :)
          
          Elmo xx

elmothesunflower_

@Diamondgirl2007 thank you so much, same for you <3
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Diamondgirl2007

@error_elmoo I'm glad to know you're doing better and you're getting better sleep! If you ever need someone to talk to you can talk to me <3 You'll be okay!❤
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elmothesunflower_

@Diamondgirl2007 I'll be completely honest I don't remember what happened. If it's what I think it was I believe I was very scared at the time. I've gotten better with dealing with the  news as what I believe it is still effects me a lot. I'm doing very well now though! And I sleep a lot better now too
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elmothesunflower_

hi! so of anyone is interested i've decided i want to try to get back to the old me. i stopped feeling interested in both writing and expressing myself after some stuff and i've realized the only way to let that go is to try to get back to how I felt before. how better to do than write about myself lol. i'm not quite sure anyone really cares but if you wanna check it out you can :) I wrote about my new playlist of childhood songs.
          
          Elmo xx

elmothesunflower_

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I am in desperate need of a rant but I have nowhere to do it so here I am. I don't know who I am any more, what my life has become. I used be so happy, granted that'd be about 8 years ago but I can still remember. Now I have no clue what that word means. Now I am just obsessed with 5 adult men who I know I will never have the chance with. Now, I am "friends" with the made up personalities in my head. Nothing I do has meaning and I'm honestly convinced it never will. I don't think I will ever amount to anything. I have done nothing but read fanfiction and cry these last few weeks. I'm actually beginning to be concerned with myself. I don't make efforts to socialize at all and I hate my own company. Worst part is that I am aware of it all and have no plans to end it. I am so out of 'social experience' that I spent around 20 minutes last night trying to figure out how hugs work. HUGS. I don't know what to do any more, I'm unhappy and alone and just... blah. I fucking hate it all.