looking back in my wattpad journey, it changed me in subtle ways. I casually wrote 'words can express' and dropped it, and the amount of views it got overwhelmed me as being a beginner writer. Honestly? I thought it was really tuff back then HAHSHHA. As time passed, i had so much drafts. I wrote new books and dropped chapters. But little did i know i wouldn't even finish it. I've been writing for the people, not for myself.
'Words Can Express' is something i enjoyed doing. Really. Because it was for my own happiness. I was happy it got some recognitions, views, votes.. I was happy. But then time went on, i had other new books (that's in my drafts and few posted with one-3 chapters) because of new hyper fixations quickly drifted away from the level of passion of ideas i had for that book.
I realized that my hobby and slight passion for writing was leaning more into writing for other people. I was trying to give what people wanted, or possibly would've wanted. Could have. But never for myself anymore. That's why I've been thinking to discontinue all my published books that i posted and left it just the way it is.
I'm trying to get out of this shithole and start a new version of me where i finally post a full book, where it's just me. For my own happiness. Don't get me wrong.. writing my new published books makes me happy, but i haven't felt the passion whilst writing.
I hope to come back in this message for my followers and for myself when i finally get to unleash my own potential and realize my passion for writing.
Be safe everyone and drink lots of water!!
