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Preview for Chapter 7 out now!!

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Imma try and start writing again for Tomorrow and hopefully have an update!! After this next update I’m going to take the time to go through the story and edit it, it’s coming out different than how I originally had put out in the prologue so I will be changing that, also I do not typically edit before I upload so I will be doing that to make more sense of the story and just better grammar and correct spelling!! ❤️❤️

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I'm tired, but I'm wide awake. Someday I'll be able to find out why I feel so lost and so numb. There are so many things that I know I should be reacting to. But it's so hard, I find myself more times than not with a blank face with so many thoughts and none at all. I want to write. I want to write more, more often, I wish I could just be locked up in a room by myself and write my heart out. Then I'd be free, free from the unknown of what life will bring to me, what my next mistake will be. Gosh, I'm so tired, yet wide awake.
          
          I struggle a lot with asking for help, I always say to myself that I can deal with it, I'll be fine. But sometimes I wish I got help, with what, that's something I will never know. Because when everyone asks me why I do these things, why I'm like this, why I keep doing the same stupid thing over and over. My answer is I don't know. That's true, I don't know, something is holding me back from finding out. Maybe I'm too afraid, that may be so. Gosh, I can help people, I can support and encourage them, but I can't do so for myself. I don't hate myself, I don't love myself. I'm stuck in the gray area and I want to get out.

LeeCape

@ems_ash You're welcome : )
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ems_ash

@LeeCape Thank you, I’ll take what you said to thought and try it out.
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LeeCape

@ems_ash i may not know exactly how you feel but i can relate to some stuff. I also don't know how to ask for help or confide in people about my emotions coz i honestly never know whats wrong with me, i even get so numb that i can't even throw a fake smile for the sake of not worrying my mom....i know something is wrong buh idk what... I can give advice, be there fr people, encourage em to be positive n stuff like that, buh when it comes to me not being okay.... I never know what to say or do, so i just shut people off and try to deal with it myself. I even have a motto for everyone i don't feel okay; no one goes through something that is above their strength....or something like that....it helps me a lot coz it gives me some hope that I'll b okay overtime.
            
            Idk who you are or where you come from buh i just thought maybe by sharing what works for me might help you too...?? Idk really.... I hope you'll feel a lil bit better as time goes by...
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ems_ash

Hey I’m currently in the works for writing another part for Under the Rain!! Hope you come and show your support! I hit over 100 reads on Under the Rain and Tomorrow a while ago, but I just want to say a big thanks to everyone who reads my work! Thank you everyone!!!