en_0420

you know it still really does baffle me everytime i see a mini surge in reads of some of my stories. specifically my OLD & CRINGEY ones...like bffr why do yall even dig in on allat  but i assume that yall just can't FIND much fics to read on here and end up clicking on my mediocre ones by chance 
          	they're not even THAT popular or anything but noticing ppl still commenting and voting even though those stories were published a few years ago makes me question what was even so appealing though i couldn't be more grateful for this bunch i have
          	like wdym you could be across the globe giggling and enjoying my stories in your rooms?!?!
          	well, im gna reveal a big hint as to where im from...my country has the world's strongest passport  
          	anyway my point is, i can't fathom how my stories reaches a global audience lol it's just so strange but honestly really sweet. love yall sm 

en_0420

you know it still really does baffle me everytime i see a mini surge in reads of some of my stories. specifically my OLD & CRINGEY ones...like bffr why do yall even dig in on allat  but i assume that yall just can't FIND much fics to read on here and end up clicking on my mediocre ones by chance 
          they're not even THAT popular or anything but noticing ppl still commenting and voting even though those stories were published a few years ago makes me question what was even so appealing though i couldn't be more grateful for this bunch i have
          like wdym you could be across the globe giggling and enjoying my stories in your rooms?!?!
          well, im gna reveal a big hint as to where im from...my country has the world's strongest passport  
          anyway my point is, i can't fathom how my stories reaches a global audience lol it's just so strange but honestly really sweet. love yall sm 

en_0420

hey, came to let yall know im working on a new story right now. it's gonna be a jake one! it was lowkey supposed to be a oneshot, but i think it's worth making a separate story for it lol. but yeah it means the chapters are gonna be short. 
          
          gonna be a mean guy x insecure girl, and in my opinion, he actually is a jerk in this story, sooo bear with it...or don't. coming up soon, and more info once i publish it!! 

en_0420

i became a fan of enhypen during a dull period of my life—not to say my mental health was bad or anything, but a period where i wished i could find happiness more easily even in the smallest of things. 
          
          that's when jay came along, drawing my curiosity. his qualities made him admirable to me and if there's one quality in particular that i had to name which stood out to me most, it would be his passion. not just for his job, but for everything he loves which includes his hobbies. playing the guitar, cooking, learning a new language, his current obsession being F1...you name it. if he wanted to acheive something, he'd work towards it diligently and he'd prove himself through his actions, not just his words. that dedication made me look up to him and so till today, he is and he will remain my bias. 
          
          why? because ever since i started adopting his mindset, i've always been driven to strive for the best, specifically in academics which i wasn't so keen on improving on previously. when i saw how my grades suddenly changed, how my failures turned into Cs, how my Bs turned into As, i felt proud of myself and most importantly—grateful for jay. even though it was ultimately me who made the change happen, jay was the one who'd triggered that huge change in my mindset. he may not necessarily share similar traits to me, but he has traits that i believe could follow to make me an even better version of myself.

en_0420

one way or another, i fell into the rabbit hole after learning more about enhypen, each individual member and how each of them bring something unique to the table. they're not perfect, but their imperfections tangled with one another was what made the seven of them perfect. my perfect home, the pillow pile i'd settle myself into whenever i sought comfort. all their words of reassurance were what kept me going, constantly reminding me to find joy in the small things in life. i love them—god i love them so much. not romantically, but in a family-type of way even if i'd only been a fan for three years. 
            
            they will always have a special place in my heart and i will continue supporting them. they started off as seven and my heart will always choose to believe that they are still seven. i think this situation made me realise how much i truly treasure enhypen, sometimes i wonder if i had taken the time they had together for granted...anyway i just wanted to leave this here because i felt like sharing my journey as an engene so please excuse me if i sounded too emotional. if you happen to see this, or even bothered to read the whole thing, i hope enhypen brings you the same happiness that they brought me, and let's continue being there for all of them—our beloved seven 
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en_0420

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im actually so lost about the whole heeseung situation. worst past few days of my life. this feels worse than a breakup. i really pray that the solo he's been preparing is going to be the best fucking solo im ever gonna hear because right now, im thoroughly convinced that releasing a solo did not have to come at the expense of leaving his own group. there's a lot of allegations regarding the situation and i really don't want to trust the misinformation spreading around. (i just don't know what to believe anymore, it's so messy)
          
          but for me? i just hope he's okay...resting at home with his family or something. that thought gives me some sort of reassurance. i just need a reason to stop bawling my eyes out. hope you all are coping, one way or another ☹️

kaazzumaahh

I just wanna hug all engenes cuz it's really really hard time for us 
            but let's stay strong and positive 
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kaazzumaahh

also there's alot misinformations going on and honestly we all are lost cuz we don't know what to believe or not...so what we can do is ignore and stay positive 
            he'll be back..
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kaazzumaahh

@en_0420 please don't lose hope...you know what?if we work together we can make it happen!! but engenes are slowly losing hopes and backing off but please don't 
            we all should stay together and work hard for our boys so please don't give up on them..
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minnyurii

HI I LOVE YOU???? thank you so so much for voting on EVERY CHAPTER of 'dumpling' and 'dear my valentine' !!!! you absolutely made my day the moment i saw all those notifs and i hope you enjoyed reading them :) <333

en_0420

@minnyurii i really did, esp dumpling‼️
            it was a really wholesome and cozy story 
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en_0420

hey, since some are requesting on a jay ff, i'm currently working on one right now. but you can expect less fluff at the start. nonetheless, i'll try my best to make it good. see you in a little bit then 

en_0420

@yukikim143 sure i'll take a look at it
            and thanks for reading my story 
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VenomYukki

@en_0420 well, if you didn't know, I have been working on a Jay ff recently, can you please check it out
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VenomYukki

@en_0420 That going really great so far!
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