You was everything to me. As i was everything to you, for such a long time that at this moment i just closed my eyes..
..and started to forgot how to think by myself.
Because i though that i wouldn't have to be alone anymore.
And i was wrong.
And i loved you.
And i ask myself if you still love me.
Cause maybe sometimes i love you too.
I wasn't all alone.
But now, i feel like i can't stand it anymore.
Why weren't you strongh enough to support me ?
Why doesn't anyone seem to know how to do it?
I feel so lonely.
It's been a long time since I died.
Why can't I help, why can't I protect anyone from feeling like this?
Late in night, i hold your t-shirt so hard that i couldn't breath anymore.
That was all fine; because that way, it kept me from crying.
You stopped me from drowning, because you knew what chaos had been stirring me for so long.
I don't want to erase everything -cuz gosh, it was beautiful.
I only want to forget the way i fell when i think about it.
The way i am.
The thoughts i have.
And the feelings i still have for all of these. You included.
I want to forget myself.
And reincarnate as a healed person.
Useful.
Who has the words.
And can be a good friend to others, if she doesn't know how to be a good friend to herself.
Are you all right?
Are you forgetting me?
I'm so scared here.
I'm so scared, because I know that at any moment, in a flash, my weaknesses will take me away from this world, and I'll have nothing left.
I would have nothing.
Why would others remember me?
I don't have anything for me.
I honestly think that my soul has been damaged by how i am in the inside like in the outside too.
And there's nothing to fix it.
Dear, it's a soul, not a glass.
I could never be normal.
No matter how much I want to.
For that, you know, Universe, you're unfair sometimes.
Tell me, wouldn't you like to hold me in your arms, just for a little while?
