entertaiiner

I wish I would have stayed more active in the fandom the past year. You never realize how much you need to connect back with what helped you during your worst times. I feel grateful to have been apart of a fandom like this for as long as I have. I was never much into the ships of the band but just reading stories on here, whether I believe in the ship or not, has helped me immensely and brought me the most amount of comfort. Listening to their music and watching old videos have been the only thing helping me at the moment and I’m happy that we will always have those things no matter what happens 

I remember during quarantine when Liam would post YouTube videos about random topics. Those videos genuinely got me through quarantine. The thing I loved the most about Liam is how real he was, he felt like someone you had the chance of knowing because of how much he loved his fans. It never necessarily felt parasocial because you could tell he loved communicating with us just as much. I never saw him as an attention seeker for how much he talked about the boys, I only saw him as someone with a big heart who wanted to keep them close to him. Liam had a very kind heart and it is horrible that the problems he faced got the best of him. I’m feeling completely out of it seeing videos of him this past week and how lost he looked. He should still be here  

Liam deserved the chance to get better, get sober, right his wrongs, spend more time with his family, spend more time with his son, release the music he had worked on and was so proud of, reunite with the boys and have those deep conversations to make up for lost time, he deserved every chance to live his life to the fullest. It is such a strange feeling to experience the grief that is not yours to feel. Liam should have been able to grow old. 31 years shouldn’t have even been half of his life. My heart goes out to Bear who deserves to make lifelong memories with his father. My heart goes out to his parents who did not deserve to outlive their son. My heart goes out to his sisters who deserved to grow old with their brother. My heart goes out to his girlfriend who deserved the chance to make it last with her boyfriend. My heart goes out to Maya Henry because the grief of losing someone who hurt you is unexplainable. My heart goes out to the boys who never got the chance to all reunite and have those deep conversations to make up for lost time. You really do not know when something like this could happen. Keep close to those in your life and check up on them. You never know what someone could possibly be going through and you simply asking them could save them. 

cannot believe liam is dead. you never realize how horrible a situation will feel until it happens 

i miss that one person that used to reply to like everything i posted on here 

i know that i left for a long time and honestly i missed wattpad and all of the fanfics i’d read that would absolutely ruin my mental health because i do not care for trigger warnings. im trying to get into writing again. obviously i have many unfinished books that i actually was hopeful for, not so much anymore. i’m still going to try and finish all of them. it’s summer break, i have the time. besides all that, how are you all doing?

hii hey how are you doingg?

just posted the prologue of this new book im working on. i plan on having it be really long unlike everything else i write. hope you enjoy the prologue. knowing me, who knows when i’ll start writing more of this again 
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/298430123?utm_source=ios&utm_medium=link&utm_content=share_writing&wp_page=create_story_details&wp_uname=entertaiiner&wp_originator=52gT0UZtZnn1ACGMJW5zFPAJiEVwkv%2B5vUK0E0mGjlFFk6hCOLBTLhVdFn8CY9K5nfT4snWaKuvkgtIRsh1u1m6dvU%2F9pYd9H36nJi%2FSdfvmrSG%2FQb2aKR%2BDQLgb15bO

happy new years everyone!! 

Thanks for the follow love :)