Hello fellas, it's been a while right?
I'm sincerely sorry for taking a sudden hiatus without a proper announcements. I know that I was gone for a long time.
I suffered from heartbreaks, stress, anxiety, trauma's and depression involving my family, friends, studies, financial and him. As the day passed by, my mental health decreases and my anger issues worsen and everything around me feels so complicated. Doon ko naisip na, "I'll quit wattpad muna," so I did.
Days turns to week and weeks turn to months.
I was pressured to everything and especially a problem with him.
Alam niyo 'yong feeling na sobrang hirap sa pakiramdam kasi ganun yung situation mo. I was totally lost. Every night nag m-mental breakdown ako without a reason, and at the end of the day i realized na i only have myself. And asked, "what's the reason u're still alive?"
I seek an answer. I seek a reason.
Yung tipong muntik na akong dumating sa point na pagsisisihan ko. And that's when I realized na I need an immediate help.. to undergo some treatment and medications. After days and another until that very moment, it was a success I will never get ashamed of, to reclaim myself and a reminder that I fought well.
I realized through my rough journey, even how great u built those walls, it will collapse without u knowing it. Be careful to who u trust.
A little reminder from me;
— a person is not a stepping stone to heal urself. Don't use someone to make urself complete again instead give them ur sincerest gratitude for helping u and for playing the biggest part in ur darkest days. It's ur sole responsibility to heal urself not them.
— please don't take every words to urself so harshly and take good care of ur mental well-being for the sake of ur stability.
I'm so sorry for the months wasted I promise to be back for good. I miss y'all really. I hope for your kind consideration. Thankies!
Love urself unconditionally than others.
ps. btw, 08/08 it was my day yesterday.
